(Chapter based off song baby hotline)
(Polands POV)
America has been helping me out a lot the past few days, but he has his own mental issues so he can't always be there. By this time I was ready to try suicide.
I just don't want to exist anymore. Why am I still here?
Hm....what to use..... I found a rope and tied it around my neck and started choking myself.
My vision went blurry. I felt dizzy, I tasted blood, I couldn't breathe. It was perfect and painful, I finally can die in peace alone no one to stop me.
My body started feeling weak and my head started pounding like hell but it was the process. I started to see black, My ears were ringing.
The last thing I saw was the living room life before I blacked out and hit the ground hard.
Hours later I woke up. I was panting and my head was hurting like hell my body was still aching so so much and my vision was still blurry
I was so dizzy and scared. I didn't know where I was.
I quickly observed the place and realized I was in the hospital. But how? I live alone and no one came over.
Then America came in the room and hugged me so tightly. "POLAND WTF WERE YOU THINKING!!!" He shouted.
"How did you know that was what I did...."
"I came to your house to come and check up on you but you weren't answering the door so I got really worried so I did what any sane person would do, I took a bat and swung open the door"
America said. I kind of laughed at this. But I was sad my attempt failed. I still have to live in sorrow. Oh yea after I get out of the hospital I can just try again!
"Don't even think about trying again!" America yelled
"Mkay....."
A few days later I was released from the hospital.
America recommended I call a suicide hotline once I got home. And I did
I used the house phone in my house to call. I put the number in and called the suicide hotline.
They hung up and put me on hold....
I'll try again....
"Hotline" hung up and put on hold....
"Hotline" my hope is getting low....
Endless hours of ringing and being put on hold....my heart is getting cold....i am empty....numb....
...
Numb I've been burning with haste and I'm realizing now I'm a terrible waste I feel numb I've been burning with haste and I'm realizing now I'm a terrible waste I feel numb.......
I hate hoping....
(Nobody's POV)
Poland grabbed the telephone line and wrapped it around his neck smiling aimlessly. He was going mental his smile grew wide as he could feel himself struggling to breathe.
His vision went blurry he felt dizzy and then he started to see black.....ringing in his ears was heard as his smile grew wider and wider.
His head pounding, his body feeling limp
He loved this feeling so much it's like he's going crazy
Minutes later a knock his heard on Polands door. Then another knock........
They knocked and knocked but no answer. He knew Poland was home and he came to see him after he heard about the first attempt at suicide
The loud "BANG" was heard as the door slammed open and he ran in the house
Germany walks in the living to find Poland unconscious and he's about to stop breathing.
Germany calls 911 and in a few minutes the ambulance arrives.
(Polands POV)
I woke up in the hospital again this time with multiple doctors around me My head was pounding and I was so so very dizzy
My whole body hurts and I felt too weak to even sit up. I felt like vomiting, the doctors started asking questions and i answered them
"Poland do you know you are at risk for a mental hospital?" One of the doctors spoke. My eyes widened in horror.....
"B-but..." I started, "this is the second time you've attempted suicide love, this is a serious case" the doctor said.
After a while the doctors left and I was there alone. Then I saw someone walk in it was Germany
I turned away from him obviously not wanting to see him,
"Poland I'm sorry.......i wasn't there when you needed me the most all because I was caught up in some stupid work"
".....I hate you just as much as I hate myself..."
"POLAND!!" America came running in the room and gave Poland a big hug. "What happened! Why did you do this again?!!"
"The hotline put me on hold and I just did it..."
"Omfg! Poland I'm so sorry that happened you could've gave me a call instead of doing all of this!" America shouted.
I knew he was right but I just wanted death so badly and I just couldn't wait any longer but....i failed again
What am I in this useless world?
(Authors notes: Poland our poor baby, he really didn't deserve all of this he's just so amazing and precious and so very innocent well used to be but this poor countryhuman will he ever get better? Or will he be stuck in this void of sadness and shame? We'll see soon, until next time my stars)
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