A Movie of Our Own (wlw)

6

Charlotte

"Okay everyone take fifteen." Brooke sighed out loud, finally signaling that we were either finally done with the scene, or we had fifteen minutes until we started filming the next scene. Either way, I was more than relieved to be finally let on break. I immediately walk over to my designated chair with my name printed on the back and sit down as if I just got done with the most exhausting twelve hour shift ever. When in reality, I've really only been working for about three hours.

The most exhausting three hours of my life in fact.

"You okay there?" Jessy asks with a bottle of water in her hand, handing it out to me. I nod to her before taking the water bottle and opening it, then taking my first sip. "I feel like I just ran a marathon. I can breathe perfectly fine, but the rush I'm feeling is insane. And I can't tell if it's just because of how infuriated I am because of the amount of retakes that scene took, or if I'm just exhausted." I spit out before taking another sip of water.

"Probably both." Jessy pouts as she shrugs her shoulders.

"Yeah you're probably right." I nod, agreeing with her.

"Anyways.." Jessy speaks up. "I just wanted to check on you, are you doing okay?"

"Yeah, I'll be fine." I reassure her.

"Okay, just call or text me if you need anything."

"Why? Where are you going?" I ask, "I thought we just had shooting for today?" I add. Most times, Jessy is by my side, because who knows what I would do without her? I'd probably be a total wreck, but that's why I need her. Although she is my manager, we have this unspoken agreement that she'll help me with certain things that usually only an assistant would do. We've worked with each other for a while and were used to each other so we've just never spoken about it.

"Well, it seems that for one of the press interviews I have booked for you already—they want to do it another day so I have to have a meeting with them and schedule another date." I nod at this as Jessy continues. "Then, I have another meeting with Calvin Klein about your photoshoot you're going to have with them in about a month because obviously you won't be able to attend because you're stuck here." Jessy says as if im stu

Brooke had made us redo the scene about 10 times already and I'm pretty sure we had gotten the perfect take a long time ago.

Not to mention the fact that I wanted to laugh and run out of the place every second of it. It's not everyday that you see a gay man and a lesbian woman flirting with each other. Especially when they're kissing each other. And yet, none of them are actually out of the closet. Well, at least one of us has at least their head out of the closet. My doors are completely shut and I don't plan on opening them anytime soon.

Besides a gay man and lesbian woman kissing, Brooke kept on staring at me during the scenes and while I did try to read her eyes, all I could see was anger—which is all she feels anyways. And I don't want to make any wrong assumptions, not with Brooke Williams, my director. That's a whole other issue but something is telling me there's so much more than me not meeting her expectations. This is a whole different feeling. The feeling of when someone can't leave your head and you think that they might be thinking about you as well, but you see so many signs, yet you second guess yourself and think that 'I'm just making things up'. Because there's no way she could be thinking about me?

There is a small chance that this feeling could be possible, but I doubt it. Brooke seems like a busy woman and a million things could be going through her mind. Which reminds me, I definitely have something to worry about, and it's probably the worst mistake I've ever made.