Catching Feelings.

Almost The End

"It's strange to think the songs we used to sing, the smiles, the flowers, everything is gone. Yesterday I found out about you even now just looking at you, feels wrong. You say that you'd take it all back, given one chance, it was a moment of weakness and you said "yes". You should've said "No", you should've gone home, you should've thought twice before you let it all go, you should've known that word,with what you did with her, get back to me. And I should've been there in the back of your mind. I shouldn't be asking myself 'why?' ,you shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet. You should've said no, baby and you might still have me." -You Should've Said No ~ Taylor Swift.

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It can't be. Am I having a nightmare? Cause this is the perfect timing for me to wake up. Okay life, ha ha. You enjoyed the moment, now tell me you're lying. I closed my eyes and opened them, it was real.

Right there, on the first page of the newspaper was a picture of Zayn and Mirvana kissing. I could hear my heart shatter into a million little pieces. The world was spinning round and round. The paper fell out of my hands and I stumbled with my own feet. Then all I heard was Tay yelling "Lexie? Lex no!" before everything went black.

I opened my eyes to a pain in my chest and a trembling feeling in my stomach. I prayed to God that it would be just one of life's sick jokes. But it wasn't. The paper was still lying on the floor next to my weak body and hopes. Tay was sitting next to me crying and trying to wake me up. I gained every ounce of strength I had to stand up. I had absolutely no expressions on my face; like a dead man. My throat was dry, air was barely reaching my lungs. I grabbed my car keys and left. Tay and dad tried to stop me, but I was blinded by my feelings. I drove my car not even knowing what was going on. It felt like sleep walking. I was driving so fast then I started hearing loud horns. Like the bubble I was in bursted. Everything was so loud. I hit the breaks hard and the car came into a complete halt in the middle of the road. People were shouting at me and my reckless driving, cars passing me by with their annoying horns. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I broke into tears. I cried rivers and my heart ached. It felt like being killed a thousand times over. I couldn't breathe anymore. My tears were making my sight foggy and I was too pained to realize that my head was bleeding. I must have hit it in the steering wheel when the car stopped. It took me a couple of minutes to calm down, and when I did, I turned my car back on and drove home. Paparazzi haunted the place. I tried to lay low, hide my blood shot eyes, my tear stained face, and my bleeding forehead. But I failed. Cameras and flashes ran to me the moment my car showed up. I drove faster and entered the building's parking lot. Security guards tried to keep the photographers and reporters out as I rushed inside the building and went up to my apartment. My first instinct was to open the envelope Maria gave me. She said it would help me in times when I needed help. And at that moment I was desperate for help. I got the envelope and emptied it. There was a letter and a key. I opened the letter and read it.

"My dearest Lexie,

I tried my best to be a replacement to the emptiness you had in your heart. I tried so hard to fill the gap in your life,but I filled a very small part. The only person who was able to heal you completely was Zayn. When he came into your life, you became a whole new person; you became happy. You are probably wondering why i'm saying that. I made you promise not to open the envelope unless in desperate times. And that would be when the gap is empty again. Zayn broke your heart somehow. I'm not a psychic, but that's what hurts you most. It's hard to believe, but it happened. I'm not there to shield you and protect you. But there may be something I can do. Running away might not be the right solution, but in such conditions you need peace to come up with the right decision. When I moved with my family to London, we bought a house. We never had the chance to live in it. So now it's yours. All the paperwork has been taken care of. Your new house is now ready to give you all the peace you need to think well. Don't have a reckless decision, don't let your anger consume you. Whatever happens, always remember that Zayn loves you. Think well, darling. I'll be praying for you.