Apart- Miniminter FF

Prologue

Sitting here trying to figure out how to start this. Typing out sentences and erasing them over and over, music running through my ear buds and pulsing my ear drums filling me with inspiration and one person comes to mind, Simon. Most people know him as this famous youtuber, part of the Sidemen, Miniminter, mm7games. To me he is more than just that, he's my best friend.

As things took off we came to a point in life where it was; let go and let dreams come true, or hold on and hold back. Guilt wasn't something that neither of us wanted to live with. He grew into something great. I sat back and watched millions of people fall in love with the boy who would never look back to see that I had fallen in love with him the day we met.

Friends were definitely something I found hard to come by. It wasn't because the lack of people more like the stress of talking to someone was overwhelming. If I haven't known you my whole life you bet your ass I won't be talking to you, even then I probably won't be talking to you either. That was something about Simon that was easy.

His father worked with mine so they would get together and talk business and Simon and I would play for hours in our garden. Overtime the visits had become less and less frequent and my mom had a job offer in the States so we packed our things and left without a goodbye.

At the age of 17 I graduated from high school, where there was a complete lack of connection and friendship. I packed up my things and took the long journey back to the UK to the place I had known up to age 6. I knew no one, all I had was a photo of Simon and me from before we had left, and he was all I really remembered.

I wandered the streets after taking an uber into town. Just looking for places that were in photos anything to make this place my home. I remember walking into this little shop and it gave off this feeling of belonging and I knew I had made the right decision to move back.

After about 2 months of living in a little homey apartment I finally got the courage to call up my parents for the first time since leaving them, they hadn't agreed with my moving. They were proud I was doing something that I had wanted to do, something that I was enjoying. They also gave me one key thing to making back one amazing friendship.

Apparently in this two months' time my parents were talking with Simon's parents. I was given their address and their contact information. As soon as that phone call ended I was headed to see the boy I had once played with until we passed out watching cartoons. Walking up to their door was without a doubt the most nerve racking thing I have ever done, going to a place I did not know.

The memories at that point become the start of something pretty incredible. Meeting Simon that night it was like we had been hanging out for the past 11 years. I came to find out that he was 2 years older than I and he was just starting youtube. One of his close friends was getting big or was pretty big on youtube. It was a lot to come into being such an introvert, but I enjoyed every second of it.

I remember the moment that Simon found out that I was a cheerleader back in the States. The pure disappointment that I liked American football over Football was written all over his face. He took me to my first match and I was so bored, I hated it. He took me to the pitch and tried teaching me and tried to get me to enjoy it. The only way I would and will ever enjoy Football is watching him. He made Football look good.

After 2 fun filled years of adventure and friendship things began to change. I wanted nothing to do with my own life, I found myself lost in this life that wasn't mine, but it was his. This is when I decided that it was best to let him grow to be his own self at least that is how I put it to everyone. Big lie. I had become Simon's girl, Simon's friend. My name wasn't anything that interested anyone but Simon and his close group of friends.

My name is Ashley, further known as Rosie, this is the story of how I lost myself within my best friend but wanted nothing more than to have it all back once it was gone.