I woke up in bed again. I got hurt again by Ethan. My body feels sore and I feel sick to the stomach. I can't imagine it. I still got up and took care of my siblings. Ashlyn and Asher were eating breakfast in their room even though they were not allowed to. I didn't care, I spent the rest of the morning with them in their room. I felt dizzy and nauseous while doing that but I ignored it. I felt worse as the afternoon came along. I was playing with dolls with my younger siblings and felt extremely uncomfortable because of the thought of being very dizzy. It was very fun playing games with my siblings until I passed out.
I woke up in the hospital. I was hooked with IV and a lot of other stuff. I was confused and looked around. The doctor found out that I woke up and then started to check if I was ok. I felt like saying I was ok but I kept quiet.
Later my aunt and my siblings came to visit. My dad didn't even bother which I was so fucking mad about inside. My aunt found out that I didn't eat for almost two months and I passed out because of that and now I'm going to be supervised in order to eat which is horrible, but the worst part is that I'm staying in the hospital for a month. I'm scared for my siblings to be alone with my dad but my aunts said they are going to be with her so I was relieved. But afterwards. My boyfriend came and pretended to be "nice" and "comfort" me. I don't even believe half of his shit while the nurse talks to him. When everyone is gone. I feel so relieved that there isn't anyone to bother.
I was siting on the bed while doing nothing. Until a nurse came for my lunch. The hospital started to feed me in a new start and fresh. They are giving me foods that I liked before they tried to give me new food. I ended up getting it. Cheesy noodles, steamed broccoli and some juice. I didn't even want any of it but my aunt doesn't even know what I like either way. Hahaha. They thought I ate all of it. Some days I like to piss the staff by not eating it or eating a little. They ended up forcing me. I just want to just out of this fucking hell of this place. I would blame Ethan for getting me in this fucking solution.
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Just came home from the hospital because the hospital thought I was better. Therefore, I was better when I wasn't there with my dad and Ethan. When I came back. Ethan sexually touched me again and cried on my bed in pain. I fucking hate this. I feel like I'm hurting inside but I don't show it outside. I shouldn't be silent but sometimes, people have too
