To those that I love,
I care so much about other people that I put them before myself. That I sacrifice everything just to be hurt by the fact that they don't care the same. They dont care enough to put me first. No matter the circumstance, I fight to be there for anyone. I know it's selfish. I know it's rude to want to be put first. And that I shouldn't expect others to do it. I hurt myself in the end by having this mindset. But when I don't do it, I feel heartless. And being heartless is worse than feeling all the pain in the world. So either way, I'm picking my poison. But when I truly love someone, I'm willing to self-discipline myself. Let me repeat myself, if I love you enough to discipline myself, you are special. I'll bawl my eyes out while I type. "Yay!" Because I care about you so deeply that I refuse to dump my rabid emotions on you, especially since it's not anyone's fault accept my own darkness. So if it seems I'm dramatic or overly emotional, it's because I'm taming my traumas for you. Because you deserve the best version of me. So, to the people I truly love, this is for you. Please give me your patience. I will heal for you because you care enough to believe in me.
Thank you.
- A Loving Poet
