Finding you

TWO

                                    OLIVER

I woke up to the low sound of music from Naviers brown Marshalls speakers that's sitting on her bookshelf. Cry by Cigarettes after sex was playing, she's been listening to that same album for awhile now. She said in her words "A good mix of calming and heartbreaking." I smiled at the memory and just how fascinating her brain works at times.
I must have dozed off on her couch while we were watching our series. I was exhausted from our night prior, ever since Naviers break up with Sky, she's been having a real manic episode or atleast that's what I like to call it since she refuses to go to a therapist to actually see if she's diagnosed with anything.

For the past month all she's been doing is going out, drink, hook up and go to work. She is extremely sleep deprived and definitely not eating enough, sometimes I wonder if she's a robot because no one in their right mind would survive her lifestyle, well, manic lifestyle.
She's never usually like this, although sometimes when a big change enters her life like her breakup with Sky she spirals, either up or down hence the manic episode she's having. I know her well enough to know that she'll be able to get out of it soon and all I could do is be there for her. Which I gladly am.

"Oh you're awake!" Navi tilts her head smiling,  walking towards me with only an oversized white shirt on "Sleepy head." she giggled while brushing her fingers through my hair walking past me to the kitchen and pouring herself a glass of water.
"Why didn't you wake me up?" I asked acting frustrated but failing miserably, distracted by Naviers figure. "Stop it Oliver." I thought to myself. "She's your best friend." I looked away as I reminded myself.
"You're cute when you sleep." she paused and shrugged "When you actually manage to fall asleep."
I've always had a hard time falling asleep ever since I was a kid, and when I do I always end up waking up multiple times in the middle of the night, insomnia as some might call it.
My thoughts were interrupted when Navier called out to me.

"So, Oliver.." she said sheepishly looking down to her feet while tapping her fingers on the glass she cupped in her hands. She does that when she's embarrassed or nervous about something. "I was thinking, you know, for 4 years I've been so frustrated because of Sky."
hearing his name come from her mouth makes me wince, I clenched my jaw just thinking of how badly he treated her and how many times he made her cry her heart out. It broke me to see her that way. No matter how nice the guy was, he never deserved Navier.

"I really lost my confidence.." which I thought was absurd. Navier is beautiful, her big brown eyes that you just get lost into when you stare at them too long, the way her thick black hair falls down to her waist and her smile, god it's intoxicating.
I've also been going to the gym with Navier for years now, so I know for a fact just how strong and fit she is. It makes my blood boil that a guy like Sky would make her feel less than. Anyone would swoon at her beauty.
"You're beautiful Navi!" I exclaimed.
She rolled her eyes "Well, Oliver, thanks but you're my best friend therefore your opinion is biased af." she continued to tap her fingers onto the glass.

"Anyways, as I was saying. I lost my confidence and while hooking up with other people helps a little to feel wanted again. Which is unfortunately something I haven't felt for awhile with Sky. It just doesn't feel enough, it feels too superficial, fake almost. Maybe even forced? Do you get what I mean?" she asked furrowing her eyebrows and putting down her glass on the kitchen counter.
"Yeah, I get it Navi. Of course you would feel that way." she walked towards me slowly still avoiding eye contact. "It makes me feel lonely." her eyes full with sorrow, almost empty.
Navier continued "So since you're my best friend and I love you and you love me.." now standing right in front of me, she bit her lip and let out a light sigh finally meeting my eyes.
"Can you give me some type of closeness?" she asked biting her lip again, her fingers running through my hair and this time goosebumps spread down my spine and throughout my whole body.
"Okay." I answered.