He fell harder but she never fell
"I like you, Zia" lakas loob kong pag-amin. I know she likes someone but I can't help it, I like Zia since first year high school until now.
"I'm sorry, Dev. I like someone else."
"I know, but I can't help it. Just..can you just please let me like you?" I ask. But she didn't say anything instead she left me stood there alone.
I sigh deeply and urge myself to sleep but I can't, I can't forget what happened earlier actually it was embarrassing but what I can do, I like her.
Next day, to my surprise Zia talk to me. But something is not right.
"You like me, aren't you? Then you will help me, right?" she said.
"Y..yes?" I answer unsurely. Zia, why are you like this.
"Be my boyfriend." I was stunned on what she said.
"Wh—" But before I could finish what I'm about to say she already left. I was shock but I'm having doubt about it. Something felt wrong, she was using me but I like her.
Since that day, me and Zia start hanging out with each other. We're acting like lovers and I still don't know why we're doing this since she didn't tell me anything. I know its not good, but I'm enjoying it, us being a fake lovers. Days passed, my feelings for Zia grow stronger and we still hanging out with each other. Until one day, she said something that hurt me.
"Let's end this now, Dev. Thank you, I owe you a lot but I'll make up to it." she said. Again, she left me stood there alone. No words came from my mouth as I watch her slowly walking away. She was just using me to make her ex boyfriend jealous, and yeah I know that. And I let her use me, because I thought that's the only way I could show her how I love her deeply. But I guess its end here now, I'm not mad at Zia, having her as a lover, a fake lover at a short period of time is fun. Maybe..maybe in the next life...ako naman.
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