Did you ever wake up with this strange feeling inside of your stomach? That is what I felt for the past 3 years, and that is making me go mad. I try to hide myself behind art and paint but nothing can cover this feeling, this pain, this empty part of me... Am I strange to you? Am I just a boy who craves freedom? Or just a wierdo that tries not to feel to... closed onto myself, I guess?
He lift his body to sit on the corner of his bed, rubbing harshly his eyes, to then stare at the floor, filled up with a tone of dirty clothes. He rolls his eyes.
I cannot do a single things, since it's spring holidays, I don't even go out because the only place I go to is at school...
His phone rings, showing a name of someone calling.
Felix...?
He looks at the time, 11:23 pm, he doesn't respond.
...
The phone goes off a second time.
Fuck.
He picks up the call to hear the bright but low voice of his friend.
"Hyunjin?"
"Mmh?"
"Why didn't you answer the first time?"
"I was asleep."
He was lying, he didn't want to talk to anybody, not even his mom.
"Do you know I do not believe you?"
"..."
We could hear Felix sigh on the other sigh of the phone.
I'm disapointing as hell. Why is he even my friend?
"Listen Hyunjin, me and six other dudes are at your door waiting for you to dress up and go for a walk with us so that you don't rot in your bed."
"Felix I don't have any m-"
"It's an order. You'll refresh your mind a bit, come with us, like the old times!!"
Hyunjin knew that if he forced to stay here, Felix would have broken in by the help of Chan and Changbin to grip him with them, so he yield.
"Okay okay... let me dress up first..."
"Kay, hurry up."
He hangs up sighing loudly, he opens the curtains, closing his eyes to avoid blinding himself with the sun light. The weather was really really nice, and he thought that it was too bad he didn't go out to enjoy the weather but he quickly shook his thoughts off and dress up as quick as possible to open the door, quickly waving to his mom on the couch, still high from the previous evening, and he hated to see in that state but it's not like he could do somethkng anyway.
He greets all his friends with a fake smile, which annoyed Felix but he couldn't say anything.
"How have you been big bro?"
Yeogin asks with boba eyes.
"I've been good thanks, and you?"
Felix frowns to his fake answer. He knew he was lying but didn't say less.
They went walking as it was planned, first walking around the neighbourhood to then find the start of the path they use to take 3 years ago.
It has been so long since I took that path, this feels so strange. What feels the most strange is that I could feel this path calling me... and I cannot resist...
They walk all aside each other, talking about everything and anything, except Hyunjin, he was staring at the following views of the path that dig into the forest as they always step more forward, he found himself drawn to some sort of energy in the depth of the woods. Felix didn't care because Hyunjin looked alive, not as always, instead he was relieved that he didn't look like he was close to cut down his throat.
Hyunjin was wearing a hoodie even if it was quite hot, and that caught Chan's attention.
Everyone was worried about his state but no one said anything because he looked like he was enjoying the moment.
It's calling me from the depth of here...
...
After a long time of walking, they decided to take a break, eating some snacks they brought with them just not to starve to much. Hyunjin didn't eat, he didn't like snacks, instead he just drank some water.
They were all talking and laughing along, no one was paying attention to Hyunjin and he didn't really care, they were lost in the moment and he understood.
...What's that noise ?
He heard like a water splash, which caught his attention. While everybody was lost in laughters, he walked slowly to the noise source. He knew where it was. But only his body was moving, he didn't really know where he was going... He then finds a lake with...
Who is that.. girl in the lake?...
His heart started to poud away so hardly, he could feel his hand shake from the image he was witnessing.
...
Suddenly his heart stopped when she looked back at him and was lowkey surprised but didn't move or run away, instead she stared back.
Who... is that guy staring at me...
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~My muse~
FanfictionA bohemian lives in the forest, and he didn't know, he was lowkey the only one that didn't know that. Hyunjin is a bored teenager close to his study years but he was ignorin what to do with his life, and he was depressed by it. Not finding any issue...
