Room 537

Chapter 17

Elijah

I can't keep my hands off of him. The past week has gone as follows:

* Wake up next to Charlie

* Give him a good morning kiss

* Shower and brush my teeth

* Breakfast

* Make out with Charlie until dinner

It's been the best week of my life. Charlie's so... so... so... I can't even describe him. I should hate myself for falling for him this quickly. At this rate I'll be proposing by Spring. Fucking Spring.

I can't get enough of him. He's like a drug.

"Fuck." Charlie moans into my mouth. "Wait. Wait. Wait. Wait." He says, out of breath, lips swollen. God, he's gorgeous.

I smile at him.

"I need to ask you something and I know this isn't the perfect time to do it but if I don't do it now I'm going to chicken out."

I climb off of him. He sits up. His hair is going in five different directions because of how I gripped it. Every time I think it's impossible to get more beautiful he manages to do it. Every fucking time.

"What's up?" I grip his thigh.

"Have you ever... you know...?"

I raise my eyebrows at him.

"Have I ever what?"
"You know." He stares at me.

"Have I ever had sex?" I ask. He nods his head looking at our hands. "Yeah I have." He doesn't say anything. His leg starts bouncing up and down.

"We don't have to do anything you don't want to Charlie. Yes, I've had sex. Yes, I enjoy it but it's not essential. I care about you, not your body. I- "

"I want to." He blurts out. His eyes widen. "Not right now obviously. I mean everything is still new you know but I... I've never had sex with a guy before. It was always something I was curious about you know but I never thought to actually do it. The normal shit doesn't scare me. Like blowjobs, handies. I'm cool with that so if you wanted to I wouldn't mind. I'm not saying you should blow me or anything well I am but not you know yeah. "

This is my favourite version of Charlie. The awkward, talks a lot shy guy.

"What I mean is. Anal scares me. Like a lot. I wanna do it. I wanna do it really bad but maybe we could start with the other stuff you know? Or whatever you want to I guess. I'm sorry I forgot to ask you that. I kind of went on a tangent because I got nervous. I didn't know how to bring it up you know? I just... fuck I'm doing it again. Please talk." He bites his lip.

I take both of his hands. "I'm good with that plan."

"That's it?"

I nod.

"That made me sound really dramatic and stupid."

I place a soft kiss on his lips. "You're far from stupid baby." I trail kisses down his neck.

"You're smart."

"Beautiful."

"Kind."

"Funny."

As I trail the kisses towards his stomach he lays down. "Mmmm."

"I thought hickeys were off limits." He says.

I looked up at him through my eyelashes. "Only if people can see them." I wink.