Drifting Hearts

Chapter17♡‧₊˚Muted

Vincent POV

She hates me...but I gave her a reason to.

It's been two weeks since i've seen her, she didn't come to the illegal car racing meets. If she did she made sure she avoided me.

Those words I couldn't tell her that night "I always loved you" How can I tell her that after what I put her through...shame on me.

She avoided me at the office by not showing up, maybe she worked at home or moved to a different floor.

Two weeks it felt like those two years without her all over again.

The truth is I can't tell her why I really said that because I can't even admit it to myself. I didn't want to be pushy or clingy to her.

If she needed space I'll give her space but I need to hear here say that or else i'll believe she doesn't.

She haunts me, in my head and my dreams. I can't get enough of her. I'm ashamed of what I turned into.

"Son..what's going on" my mother called me,
"nothing mama what's up?"
"You seem upset lately and your dad claims your not doing your best in work right now"
"i'm ok mama..."
"mother knows best"
"Your concerned for me I can tell but i'm just fine"
"It's a woman isn't it...tell me"

One thing my mother can do is know what you're thinking, she can read you like an open book.
"hm what's her name Ai...Ailene, the pretty daughter of Ryan."
"mama I don't love her please don't get that impression"
"oh ragazzo...who said anything about love" (boy)

I was caught in my own trap.

"hah....mama she's driving me crazy" relief washed over me when I said that. It felt so good to let it out my mouth, like it was locked up forever.

"your just like father" she lightly chuckles through the phone.
"Don't be like him, he's a hypocrite. He will tell u not to do this or that but in reality he's done so himself"

Realization hit me like a brick, he told me to never fall in love because he did so himself. He wants me to not walk into the same path as him in sake for the company.

I thought for just a second..maybe he felt crazy for my mother just like I am for Ailene, but no because if I was told that falling in love would be good, I would've been just fine.

"oh, speaking of him, he's calling me down to go on a stroll, I hope you will be okay Vincent, take her before your too late" she hung up

Before it's too late

I start to overthink, is she with another man right now? Is she trying to ignore me because she truly hates me.

Thoughts that I didn't like popped up in my head and before you knew it, I got dressed and drove over to the office.

She's avoiding me and I know it, I bet you she goes into the office on the days that I don't. As soon as I reached the parking lot, her car was there.

I can't help but to laugh, she's here. It was about lunch time so I went to the lunch room and there she was. Her pretty face, but there also sat a guy.

My jaw clenched...she smiled at him in ways I would never imagine her to smile at me, she laughed with him like the world only revolved around him.

Touch her and your dead

He needs to be fired for even breathing the same air as her....

Why was she so happy? What was I doing wrong?
No how can I get her to forgive me...and start fresh. I can cut my hair if she wanted and changed my appearance would she like me?

would she love me?

If she wants to avoid me so be it, she can keep trying because no matter what I'll make sure she remembers me.

every. single.second of her life

I'm crazy, and i'll make sure she feels that way too because I am quite obsessed. I went into her office and sat on her chair.

Silently I waited for her, when it came to her I was never patient. After a few minutes I heard her footsteps clicking towards the door.

"talking to other men now luv?" I would be smirking but i'm not. She dropped her papers in surprise. "Vincent get out"

"Why? you can't handle seeing me"
"it's been two weeks Vincent your just fine"
"It felt like two years...I missed your scent"
her eyes widen as I say that
"stop lying to me"
"Ailene, why would I come here to lie to you?"

She tried to walk out but I stopped her in time, pulling her arm back towards me "where do you think you're going hm? Not to that guy you were talking to" She bit her lip "Talk to me."

"Vincent please get out"
"You're making me crazy"
"then get out"
"fuck off Vincent" she pulled away from my grip.

ouch, now I know how it felt

"the tables have turned"
"Vincent I don't want to talk get out"
"Why?"
"I just don't"
"I need a reason"

She walked over to the office phone "i'll call them to take you out"
"try for me baby" I said and she bit her lips again
I walked up to her and held her chin
"i'd love to see you try" I smirk.
I bring her into hug and hold her against my chest.
"Let go of me" she said as I pulled back

"Why do you keep fuckin running away from me?" I say out loud as I get frustrated..
"because you told me to f off two years ago remember?" she sarcastically smirked and sat on her chair
"Damn it, Ailene forget that. I said i'm sorry and I
truly mean it."

"I'm going crazy how many times do I have to tell you??? I'm obsessed your making me so obsessed"
"then leave"
"You still don't get it don't you..Ailene...I"
I sigh as I walk out the door..I just couldn't say it.

A few days later

Shes in my dreams again..this time she was my wife, and before I knew it she was carrying our child.

I do my daily routine as always, working out and working in the office. She really doesn't want to see me. So i'm distancing myself from her.

I never eat in the lunch room, I never pass by her office and Id always leave before her. If she wanted me to stop being in her life...well yk I can't do that.

Hah...

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A/N:
this just a song recommendation lol