Montgomery - Shepard

The Rain came pouring down when I was drowning

A/N

I'm just gonna apologise in Advance- IM SORRYYYY

-STVR

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I Sat in my office working on my computer when Bailey paged me 911 to her office. I Got up and ran. I Ran in and Meredith was sitting against the wall shaking and having a panic Attack Bailey was crouched in front of her. Bailey looked up at me and Left the room leaving me with Meredith, I Sat in front of Meredith "Mer, What Happened" I Said softly reaching out and putting my hand on her shoulder She Sobbed. Shaking and crying, She Grabbed onto me and pulled me into her. I Put my arms around her holding her tightly "Deep Breathes Baby girl" I Said kissing the side of her head. "Shhh, Shh Its okay" I Said as she sobbed even louder. 

Bailey came back in and sat at her desk Watching us. "Bailey do you know what's happening" I asked looking up at Bailey and then down at Meredith in my arms. "No, She wont talk she just came in and sat there sobbing, the only thing she said was Your name so I paged you" Bailey said I looked down at Meredith and Kissed her head again "Mer, Honey Talk to me" I Said rubbing my hand up her arm. She just shook her head crying "Come on" I Said softly, I kissed her head again rubbing her back. "I- I- Blood" She choked out still sobbing and clinging onto me. My face dropped "You mean, like-" I started and she nodded crying even harder. "O-okay" I Said now crying myself. "Addison?" Bailey asked confused "She Was Pregnant, But i-" I Said stopping and crying harder. "Oh girls" Bailey said getting up, "Ill Get Christina and Mark" Bailey said Paging them both. They came in and Bailey explained. Mark sat next to Me Christina sat on the other side next to Meredith. We where still clinging onto each other. Mark was half hugging me and Christina had Wrapped herself around both me and Meredith. 

"Mark, Get them home" Bailey Said after Christina had been paged to a Emergency surgery Mark stood up and pulled me off the floor. "Mer" I Said softly still slightly crying She looked up at me her face red and puffy I Gently Picked her up and she snuggled into me still sobbing. I kissed her cheek softly "Mer, I Love you Baby girl. Its okay" I Said and she snuggled herself into me more. Mark drove us home and I took Meredith inside. I put her down on the couch and she looked up at me "A-Addie, I- Its Dead" She Cried I Kissed her forehead softly. "Meredith, Shh We can Always Adopt okay. I Love you its okay" I Said Gently. "I L-Love you" She said softly still crying. She pushed me over and crawled on top of me cuddling into me. I wrapped my arms around her hugging her tightly. "Meredith, Do You Want to look at adoption?" I Asked softly. "Yeah" She Whispered and five seconds later she was snoring asleep on my chest. Mark came into the living room and Sat on the chair next to the couch. "is she asleep?, Are you okay?" He asked quietly "Yeah and I'm okay" I replied Kissing The top Of Meredith's head. "Are you sure red" He asked Moving the chair closer next to the couch and holding my hand "N-no" I Said my voice breaking. I Laid my head on Marks shoulder and he put his arm around me Meredith Still Asleep on my chest " Its Okay Addison, You two will get through this together" He said, softly Rubbing my arm. I Nodded and held Meredith Tighter.

I Eventually also fell Asleep and Mark Left Leaving me and Meredith Alone. I woke up probably four hours later and Meredith wasn't on top of me anymore. I stood up and listened. Nothing. "Mer" I Called out, No response. "MEREDITH" I Yelled Starting to get scared. I ran around the house checking every room. Until I Eventually Opened the downstairs Bathroom floor and Meredith was on the floor Laying there Sprawled out on the floor. "MER" I Yelled getting on the floor. I pulled her into my arms and Checked her Pulse. She's okay enough, I Looked all over her Before seeing Blood Soaking through her t-shirt. I Lifted Her Sleeve up and There where fresh cuts all up her arm. Deep ones. She was loosing a lot of blood. I Gently Laid her back down Grabbing Bandages. I Wrapped her arm up And Pulled her back up onto my lap. "Meredith, Mer, Come on Wake up" I said softly. "she opened her eyes and softly reached up touching my face "I-I" Meredith Mumbled. 

"Meredith, Why" I Asked tearing up. "Addie- I Love you So much and I cant wait to marry you. I just. It hurts Addison, I've been through it almost 4 Times and I cant stand it Addison" I Pulled her closer into my arms "Mer, I Love you. I'm here okay, Talk to me when you need to. weather I'm sleeping, On the other side of the country I don't care Meredith. Wake me up, Call me Ill be here as fast as I Can baby girl." I Said kissing her Deeply.

"Addison" She cried Pulling me closer to her. "Hey" I said pulling her up onto my lap and closer into me. "I Want to get Married. Tomorrow" She said "I Want to marry you as fast as possible, Be with you forever." She added. "How About Saturday?, You can get your dress and we can be all dressed up and we can book a honeymoon or not we can just take time off to be together" I Said standing up holding her and taking her with me. "Okay, I Like that. Can we go dress shopping together?" She asked "yeah, want to go Tomorrow? "I said and she nodded. "Addison, It feels wrong having a dead baby inside me." She said quietly too upset at this point to even cry. "Meredith, Your not okay. We shouldn't get married right now Mer You don't seem up to it baby girl. We need time, To Heal" I said gently grabbing her face and turning her face toward me "Okay" She said softly. Still Not in tears but looking Upset and exhausted. "Meredith" I said and she looked up at me "Come on, Lets go to bed" I said She nodded and I carried her upstairs to bed. I put her in bed and Crawled in next to her kissing her forehead softly. Meredith turned away not looking at or touching me. "Mer, Talk to me" I said sitting up and looking down at her. She let out a sob "I-I'm not okay" She cried.

I pulled her into My lap and she buried her face into my neck. I rubbed circles on her back. "Meredith" I said softly still rubbing her back. "A-addie" She cried Softly. "Shhhh, Mer its alright im here." I said laying down and pulling her on top of me, She curled into a ball on top of me and cried onto my chest until she fell asleep.