Montgomery - Shepard

Pain

- Skipping 2 years SORRYYYY I just want the kids to be a little older so Frey is now 4 and Kiri is 2 -

I woke up and groaned looking over at the clock, 12:00am. I sighed and Listened for a minute I could hear someone breathing heavily and crying. I reached out next to me and Meredith was gone. I sat up and noticed light peeking through the bottom of the bathroom door, I Opened it slowly and sat next to Meredith who was sitting on the floor having a panic attack. "Mer, Deep breathes" I said rubbing her back. She let out a sob and gasped for air, "Come on Meredith, Breathe" I Said Grabbing her hand and squeezing it softly. She Gasped again and let air in this time. 

"Mer, What's going on baby girl" I asked. she shook her head "Now my fathers dead, My sister who I didn't even know existed is dead. they died in a car crash." Meredith Cried Leaning into me, I moved my arms around to let her cuddle into me and she did. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her cheek "I'm sorry Mer" I Whispered into her ear. "Come on, You'll be more comfterble in bed" I said getting up and picking her up. I Gently laid her down in our bed and I laid next to her. I put my arm out and she cuddled into me, I wrapped my arm around her and rubbed her back gently. "I Love you" I said kissing her head. "L-Love you" She Cried. 

I Woke up at 7 and gently pulled Meredith on top of me. she smiled her sleepy smile and snuggled into my chest "Mhm" She hummed as I kissed the top of her head. "Morning baby girl, Do you feel better?" I asked looking down at her, "Yeah, I feel okay" Meredith Mumbled into my chest.

Meredith buried her face into my chest and I giggled "Meredith" I smiled giggling. "Hmhm" She hummed "Your face, Its in between my boobs" I giggled "I Know" She said her voice muffled. I giggled again and lifted her face up softly. I kissed her softly "I have to feed Kiri and Frey" I smiled she shook her head her sleepy smile still grinning at me. "Come on, We can have snuggles later" I said kissing her again. "Okayy, Ill get Fifi" Meredith said climbing off me.

I went into Kiri's Nursery.

I Gently Picked her up and kissed her forehead, I Fed her And burped her. I Snuggled her gently rocking her back and forth while sitting in the rocking chair. Frey ran in Meredith Coming in after her, "Hey fifi" I smiled and Frey climbed up onto the chair sitting next to me. "Hi Kiri" Frey said giggling and smiling at Kiri, Kiri waved at her and Frey giggled. Meredith sat on the arm of the chair and put her arm around me, she kissed the side of my head and Whispered in my ear "Mommy" just Barely loud enough that I could hear her. I turned red and Frey looked up at me "Mommy you look like a tomato" She giggled putting her little hand on my cheek "I- Uhm Go With mama she will make you Breakfast" I mumbled Handing Kiri to Meredith. Meredith took the girls downstairs and winked at me as she left the room.

I went into the bathroom and washed my face I looked at myself in the mirror and everything just came back hitting me like a bus, My hands started shaking and I sat On the counter next to the sink and closed my eyes my hands resting on either side of me on the counter. "Breathe Addison" I said to myself I put one of my hands on my chest Breathing in and out softly, "fuck" I mumbled Gasping for air "Addie Breakfasts ready" Meredith called from downstairs. I Could here belle whining outside the door and scratching at it and before I knew it I had passed out falling off the counter and landing on the tiles with a thud. 

"Addison its getting cold!, Belle come eat" Meredith mumbled and belle ran Downstairs. I woke up at few minutes later with a Massive headache, I opened my eyes and stood up not knowing what had happened.

I went downstairs and Meredith came over and kissed me "Addison There's a Cut on your forehead What happened" She said moving my hair off my face "I Tripped its nothing" I mumbled sitting down and filling my mouth with Bacon before Meredith could say anything else. "Addison come talk to me" Meredith said taking my hand "Frey keep an eye on Kiri We will just be in the loungeroom" She added, "Addison" Meredith started "I Think I passed out, I- Fell off the bathroom counter I Forgot to take my meds" I mumbled Interrupting her.

"Okay, Do you feel okay? without having taken your meds I mean" Meredith said rubbing her hand up my arm "Yeah, I Feel okay enough I've got a headache but I'm okay"  I replied kissing her softly, "Good" She smiled against my lips. "MAMA, MOMMY" Frey yelled, We both ran in and Frey was sitting on the kitchen bench a broken bottle of maple syrup spilt over the floor and both the girls hands. I Giggled and Picked Frey And Kiri up, "Bath time Girls" I giggled.

I turned the bath on and put Frey and Kiri in the bath with bubble bath, Meredith came in and kneeled on the floor beside the bath with me. We washed the girls and dried them off, Frey ran to her room to play Kiri crawling behind her.

Me and Meredith went downstairs and sat on the couch, Meredith cuddled into me "Don't die" Meredith Whispered into my ear. "I wont Mer" I said back kissing her head.