A Lived Out Life

the scared lovers soliloquy

to love or not to love - that is the question:
whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
the heartbreak and tears of outrageous people
or to let them in my heart
and trust they don't disappoint again, to leave-
to walk away; and by walking away we
don't let the possibility of ever being hurt
that we are so susceptible to: 'tis a fear
we all try to avoid ever feeling. to leave,
to walk away; the chance to reconnect with someone;
ay, there's the rub;
for in connecting with someone, we let them in
to see the most vulnerable parts of ourselves.
it's not that we want to be alone,
but the fear of being hurt by them, of trusting them
with the best and worst parts of ourselves
we begin to ask ourselves - the restless nights,
possible heartbreak, weird looks and comments:
do all of these outweigh the feeling
of unconditional lasting true love?
thus conscious does make cowards of us all