Surgical passion *Derek Shepherd*

012- Make me loose control

Cassie and Elle stood jogging through the park. Elle groaned as she looked to Cassie"Oh you're stupid. Oh God. You're stupid, evil, sadist and I wanna kill you" Elle said as Cassie looked to her

"Endorphins are good. Endorphins are mood elevators. This is supposed to make us feel better" Cassie said. She knew that she wasn't having any sex and how she was using jogging as a new physical activity

"Oh god. Do you feel better?" Elle as she stopped jogging to catch her breath, while Cassie jogs around her in circles

"I'm stupid" Cassie said

"Slutty mistress" Elle said

"Marks whore" Cassie said

"Sleeping with unavailable man was a great idea" Elle said as Cassie stops to catch her breath too

"You know what's ruined for me?" Cassie asked as elle groaned in pain

"Ferry boats. I used to love ferry boats and Derek's got a thing for ferry boats. Now every time I see a frigging ferry boat..." Cassie said As Elle cut her off

They Both lie down on the grass trying to catch their breaths

"Do you think we'll feel better if we cry? You know like just let it out?" Elle asked as Cassie shrugged

"Probably. Yeah" Cassie said

"Do you wanna cry now"Elle asked

"No. I'm doing crying over him" Cassie said

"Okay, lets, lets jog" Elle said as she pulled Cassie up who groaned

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Cassie got to the hospital as she stood with Alex and smiled "how's things with shepherd? Has he been off your back?" Alex asked

"For now but I know he isn't going to drop it and I know part of me doesn't want him too. I don't know what I want to be honest" Cassie said

Alex looked to her and smiled as he placed a hand on her arm and smiled. The last week alex and Cassie had began to form a friendship and he was the only one who didn't judge her over her and Derek

"You know your not as as as everyone makes out" Cassie said as Alex smiled

"Maybe you can let me look at your mothers surgical tapes you were talking about" he said as she smiled

"Maybe" Cassie said as they walked through the hallway With the rest of the interns

"Do you have a thing for Alex? I mean shepherds married so your going after Alex?" Izzie asked as Cassie looked to her and frowned

"What's it to you?" Cassie asked as Elle walked up to where they were and frowned

"What's the better Isobel. Jealous?" Elle asked as they glared at each other as grace walked off towards bailey. She froze as she last Derek in the hallway and looked to him

Ellen looked to them and rolled her eyes "come on Juliet. Leave Romeo to cut into brains and get back to his wife" Cassie said. She was still angry at Derek