Heal Me (Completed)

Should I?

The Next Morning
Time:8:00am

"I fucked up" thought Diamond. I really went against everything my career stood for and I can't believe it. I sat on the edge of my bed just contemplating everything. I don't regret it but I also wonder what is going to happen to us and therapy, because nothing after last night is going to be the same.

Time: 8:30am

"Diamond?" "Yes?" I said. She put back on her clothes from last night. "I'm about to head out." "Ok bet." I gave her head but it was so awkward. Everything about this morning feels so awkward.

After she left, I texted my best friend our code name. Whenever we have some tea that we need to get off our chest asap we always text "Red." Shortly after she said she will be over in a few.

I showered and put on different clothes because I just had on a sports bra and boxers from last night. By the time I finished getting my life together, my phone was going off, signaling motion was at my door.

I went to go open the door because I already knew it was majestic. "Heyyy bestie, I bought tacos." "Thank you, I need it." I let her in and we went to my couch in the living room. "Soooo, what's teaaa bitch?" "Are you going to judge me?" "When do I ever judge you?" "You right." "So, what's tea?" We both got our tacos and set them aside. "So you know my new client that I was telling you about" I said to majestic. "Yes, what about her?" "We fucked last night." Her eyes got wide. "Bitchhhh, I didn't think it was going to be this type of tea, where is the Hennessy bottle when you need it?" I started laughing. "But forreal though, we had sex." "So are you going to keep seeing her as your client?" "I can't, it's not ethical but I don't want to stop seeing her altogether but it was just so awkward this morning, we barely even said two words to each other."

I took a bite out of my taco and waited for her response. "I definitely think you should have a sit down conversation with her, if you do decide to continue therapy sessions, some boundaries have to be set and ASAP, but thing is if you don't want to continue a therapy session, what do you want to be with her, together?" "Now you know I don't do relationships." "How are you going to fuck the living shit out the girl just to say you don't want a relationship?" "Who said I fucked the shit out of her?" "The smirk on your face did." "Wowwww." We laughed and continued talking and eating.

Somewhere in Los Angeles
Time: 10:30am

Asia finally made it back to her side of town and she had to call her best-friend and tell her what just happened, it's like the lord knew because as soon as she was about to call her, the doorbell rung. "Kayleeeeee." "Hey, damn why the hell you so excited, you just saw me a couple days ago." "Nothing major." "You got some coochie didn't you?"

I don't even know how she knew because I thought I looked pretty normal. "What makes you say that?" "The grin on your face showing all 32 teeth and you're glowing." "I could just be happy, it's a good day to be happy." "Mm, anyways, who was it?" 

I was so scared to tell her because I didn't want her to judge me but I have never lied to my best friend before. "My therapist". I said in a whisper. "Who?" She asked while looking confused. "My therapist." "Asia, you didn't." "Unfortunately, I went to her house for a late night therapy session and I started crying and I felt really vulnerable and one thing led to another." "Have y'all talked?" "Not at all." "You need to talk to her because I'm pretty sure this just increased all feelings you had for her and you going to her office as her client isn't going to help you at all." " I know, I have been trying to push it the back of my mind since I woke up this morning because I feel like if I address it, then that's when all my feelings for her are going to show." "Well, y'all had sex so they are going to show eventually, whether you want them to or not."

Kaylee was right. I knew I was going to have face her eventually but I just don't know when, at the same time a text came across my phone saying "Hey, can we meet up?" It was diamond. "She just texted me asking could we meet up." "Say yes and this time y'all need to meet in a public place so not freaky deaky shit go on." "It could happen in public if I want it to." I said low but she still heard me. "Nasty." I texted me and told her yes and suggested that we meet up at one of my favorite coffee shops in town. Lord knows I need something stronger than coffee but it will do.

"I'm about to go and get dressed, you can let yourself out." "Bet, have fun, let me know how it goes."

Time:11:50am

I examined my outfit as I put on luminous from bath and body works, I had on a graphic tee from shein, some high waisted shorts from fashionnova and my dunks.

I grabbed everything I would need and headed out of the door.

Time: 12:15pm

I found a parking spot that was close to the door and I just sat there for a minute. "Do I really want to do this?" I thought to myself. But I know I needed to so I gathered everything and went inside.

As soon as I was about to text Diamond and ask was she here I saw her sitting in one of the booths outside. "Hey." "Hey, how are you?" "I'm good and you?" "I'm good." I sat down and looked over the menu. I just decided on getting coffee because I'm not hungry.

"So, about last night, I'm sorry if you felt like I took advantage of you, that wasn't my intention at all, it just kind of happened." She said. "You didn't take advantage of me, if I didn't want it to happen I would have just pushed you away." She didn't say anything she just nodded her head. "So, where do we go from here because if you're going to continue to be my therapist, we are going to have to set some boundaries." "I can't be your therapist." "Why?" "Because I violated a ethical code, but I will refer to one of my own coworkers that work in the same building, that way you don't have to go anywhere and I can just send the file directly to them."

I felt like being on the verge of tears because I didn't want this to end. "So, where does that led us?" "Tell you what, stop by my house tonight and I'll show you where that leads us." I don't know if she meant it to be sexual but in my mind she wants me butt naked on the table with my legs spread. "See you tonight then." "See you tonight."