𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘, 𝐃𝐈𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐂𝐔𝐋𝐓𝐘ⁿᵃᵈᵉⁿ

𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐑

NESSA'S POV

my dad reminded me we are going out to dinner tonight. so i decided to run 5 miles. i know the doctor said no obsessive exercise but i wont do it next time.

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i get in the shower before we leave. we leave at 10 and its currently 9:00. i did a quick simple makeup look and straighted my hair. i put on a white crop top with a huge jacket and gray sweatpants.

i put my shoes on and got done getting ready at 9:30 so i still have 20 minutes before we leave. i sit on my bed and grab my computer going to youtuber. i always wanted to start a youtube channel so why not. i go to youtube and update my account. i added a boo, profile pic, and banner.

i close my computer and just look around my room. still cant believe im here right now. i want to get my mind off of freaking out about going to dinner so i decided to write in my notebook. i start therapy in 3 days. i sigh and grab my phone scrolling through instagram until time passes.

it's almost 10 so i just decided to go downstairs. no one was down there except jaden. i roll my eyes in my mind. shortly rachel comes down and sits next to him.

god can people BE ANY SLOWER.

i sit on the couch farther than them not making eye contact. i can tell jaden wad looking at me because i felt eyes on me and they certainly weren't rachels. she hates me for some reason. a girl in her 20's hating on someone whos barley 16.

everyone else comes downstairs and we are meeting the rest there. we get in the big car and i sit in the back with the window like i always do.

as we were moving, as i was looking at the window i felt like the world got slower. i just dont want to disappoint anybody. especially my dad. he has done so much with trying to help, paying for treatments, makes time to come to visit me. i love him to death. but im also scared of him.

apparently we drove 25 minutes to the restaurant but it felt like 2.

as soon as we got there of course there was paparazzi. how do they always find my dad. i hate the flashing lights. jaden helped me get out of the car since i was last. he gave me a pair of his sun glasses so the flash doesn't get in my eyes. hes been doing that since i was 6.

i felt rachel give me a dirty look as she puts her sunglasses on. we all start walking and people are getting in my face.

I HATE IT.

i hate it.

i tried to keep my head down.

"nessa where were you??" asked a paparazzi guy who hasn't seen me in months. none of them have.

my dad says something as helping me into the restaurant and we made it in. thank god that's over. thats something i didn't miss.

the waiter takes us to the table that the others were already at.

"drinks?" the waiter as taking a notepad out.

"a beer." my dad orders.

jaden orders the same.

"cocktail." gabi orders.

the waiter writes it down.

he didn't even as for her age.

what the hell kind of place is this?

the waiter comes to me. i say the only thing i know ive drank for 2 years straight.

"water." i order as my fingers intertwine with each other in nerves.

the waiter nods and walks away. everyone looks at the menu. i open it slowly terrified to see the food on this menu.

i just decide to get what i see.

5 minutes later the waiter comes back and everyone starts order their food.

"alfredo with no chicken." tara orders closing her menu.

the waiter writes it down.

"the grilled panela in roasted tomato sause." gabi orders.

my dads turn, "cali korean cheese stir fried tteokbokki."

my turn.

"cream cheese, cucumber and candied walnut rules." i say quickly.

jaden orders the same.

everyone else orders also.

-10 minutes-

the waiter comes with our food handing the plates out. the thing i learned is to cut ur sandwich or something u can cut into small pieces. i take one bite because i can tell my dad was looking at me.

then everyone started talking. i make sure no one is looking and slide the food into my coat pocket.

i wait 10 minutes before excusing myself from the table to go to the bathroom. i walk to the girls bathroom and lock the door as soon as i walk in. i throw away the food into the toilet that was in my pocket.

i flush it, wash my hands, and goes back to everyone. i sit down and jaden comes closer to me.

"u okay?" he asks trying not to interrupt the talking. i just nods not showing expression on my face. i look around feeling a headache comes in. god i cant wait to go home and sleep. i want this day to be over with.