- Bronnor Oneshots -

I'll always be here

Hi again. Sorry for not updating yesterday, I was going to update in the afternoon but my depression turned worst and I couldn't update till now. Well... I hope you like this one, I really like this oneshot, it's deeper than the others tbh

Btw warnings: depression, references to self harm

I know perfectly what is happening to Brad.

It has been a week since he has made a real smile. I've tried, I swear I'm trying to cheer him up.But I didn't talk with sincerity to him yet. I had cuddled with him, watched films together all this week and I knew that he liked this, but I know that he's falling in depression and I have to stop this.

I know how is he feeling right now, I perfectly know.

 I entered the hotel where we were staying and I walked to our room.When I came in, I saw that Brad was still in the bed. He used to wake up early in the mornings before this.I approached him and he turned to see me. Then, I realised that he had tear tracks on his beautiful face, and I swear I heard my heart breaking into pieces. 

'Baby...' I whispered at the same time I dropped the bags that I was carrying on my hands.I sat on the bed next to him and I hugged him. I could feel his arms wrapping strong around my waist, pressing my body against him until I finally ended up sitting on his lap.I pulled away from the hug, cupping his face with my hands, softly connecting his lips with mine. He didn't even move his lips. I cut out the kiss, feeling hurt, and I started to think another thing. 

What if he doesn't have depression as I thought?... What if he just doesn't love me anymore and he doesn't know how to tell me?

'B-Brad. What is happening?' my voice sounded worried, and I started to feel something really bad inside me. 

'I'm ok, Con. Don't worry' I heard his tired voice and I just couldn't keep calm.

'No Brad, no. Don't fucking tell me that you are ok when I perfectly know you and I know that you have been crying, don't even tell me that I don't have to worry because I care, I care a lot Brad.' I was almost crying when I arrived at this part. 'We're in a fucking relationship Brad, I want to help you. Or is it because of me? Are you in this mood because you wanna tell me something bad and you don't want to risk my life?!' I said gasping. 

'Babe, shut up. Con, I love you so much. Don't you think that I would break up with you when you are the best thing that arrived to my life. You're not gonna risk your life because I helped you through that. Don't make me remember that times please Con, you got over that a long time ago, didn't you? I helped you. You aren't still hurting yourself, are you?' Brad's voice sounded scared, scared about me.

Well, I'm the most idiot person in this world. I made Brad worry about my problem when I only wanted to know about his problem.I sighed deeply, rubbing my forehead, trying to calm myself.

 'Brad... Of course I don't hurt myself anymore. You made me stop doing that, you were always by my side when I only wanted to disappear and that's why you mean the world to me.' I caressed his cheek, trying to make disappear the fear in his eyes. 'You are everything to me, and I don't want to see you upset. It hurts me more than anything in this world. I wanna be by your side everytime. I want to be the one that is able to make you smile when all you want to do is cry, I wanna be the light that guides you through the darkness.' I rested my forehead on his, seeing how he was starting to calm. 'I want to be that person that, in fifty years, will still sleep with you and will love you like I love you today. I just wanna be forever with you, Brad. I want to know your fears. I want to make them disappear. I'm here, Brad. I've always been here and I will always be.' 

Brad just started to cry. I hugged him, rubbing his back while he hid his face on the crook of my neck.

'I just wanna be enough for you, Con. Everytime you walk in, I walk by your side and I see, I can see that you deserve more than me. You need someone that don't suffer from depression, someone who can bring you everywhere you wanna be, someone who can kiss you better than me, someone that is able to make you feel secure. I wanna be that someone, but I'm just not worth it enough. I'm scared, I'm scared that one day, you will realize that you need more than me and I just can't risk it, I need you more than anything-'

I cut him off, pressing my lips against him. I caressed his cheek, and my other hand went to his adorable curls. This time, he corresponded my lips. 

Our lips were only touching when I started to talk again:'You're gonna listen to me. Don't never ever think that again. When are you going to realize that the only thing that I want in this life is Bradley William Simpson? I want to marry this man, not another random guy. Watch this, baby.' I said, gesturing to my wrist. I pulled up my hoodie so he could see my skin. 'The scars disappeared thanks to you. How can you say that you can't make me feel secure? You do, more than anyone else. You helped me through my personal hell, now I'm gonna help you.'

Brad smiled at my words. He wrapped me in his arms, and I just jumped in the bed when I saw his smile

'THAT'S MY BABY! SMILE FOR MEEEE BRAD!' I sang while I jumped in the bed, making Brad laugh. He pushed me against the bed and I giggled when he started to tickle me.'Brad... do you wanna know what did I buy to you?' I said with a seductive voice, letting my scottish accent came out.

'Did you buy me something?' he asked, watching me while I reached one of the bags that I was carrying when I entered our room.

'KINDER EGGS!' I shouted, pulling out the egg's pack of the bag.

'You know me too well.' he kissed my forehead while I sat on the bed next to him.

'Let's eat them together.' I said while I gave Brad the pack of eggs.

'Not now... Later. Now I prefer to eat something else...' I blushed as he caught my lips, his hand travelling down through the skin of my back.

His lips were travelling down my neck when he suddenly got appart.

'Con?' He called me and I opened my eyes. 

'Yeah?' I whispered, looking at his eyes.

'Your smile is the strongest way to help me.'