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Chapter Two: "Looking for the Gotcha Camera Crew-"

Chapter Two: "Looking for a Gotcha camera crew-"

According to Adam, this was going to be very very messy. Of course, what do you expect when your boyfriend calls you wanting to meet because you guys need to talk?

 My head spun with possible theories.

 What if he changed schools?

What if Jennifer's cancer got worse? Jennifer, was his mother, I volunteered at the local hospital and took care of her, that's how I met Jason.Oh my gosh, what if he wants to break up? I sound so selfish, how could I possibly think about that when it is a possibility Jennifer got worse?

"Ready kiddo?" Adam placed his hand on the small of my back and made large circles, his failed attempt to comfort me did not help my situation. I shrugged in response and began to get out of the car. Adam rolled his window down and caught my attention.

"Hey, I'll be out here okay? If everything is fine wave me off alright?" again I nodded in response.Without entering the diner I spotted Jay at our corner booth. We came here on our first date and the burgers were drenched in their own weight of grease.

With one deep breath I closed my eyes, opening them to find a blonde come up to him, rubbing his arm seductively. Her eyes beamed with want and he just sat frowning.

Oh no, please Jennifer be okay.

With one swift motion I pushed open the glass door, the chimes rang above me, telling everyone there was a new customer.

"Alaska," it was barely audible through the almost empty diner. Today was Saturday; I have no idea why it is so empty.I gave him a warm smile and he stood up. The distance between us felt infinite as I made my way to him. The blonde stared at me, giving a full body sweep. I ignored her glare and focused on my boyfriend. I know we haven't you know, made love yet. But, it just felt so right with him.

"Jason, are you okay? How is Jennifer? Did it get worse? Why do you look like a mess? I'm sorry that was mean. You're probably so upset right now, I just want you to know I'm-"his interruption sent waves of pain through me. His eyes were no longer their regular light blue eyes, but they were different, almost a glassy grey colour. He had lost everything.

"Alaska stop, please? Just listen to me. You're going to hate me and I can't lie to you about this," his voice was sudden and wobbly, almost as if he had been crying. Confusion was all I felt and I had no idea what he had been lying about.

"Jay, you know you can tell me any-"his intense stare stopped me in my tracks.

"Alla, I cheated on you!" his words made my blood boil, but not in the way it should have. I didn't believe him.

"Is this some sort of joke?" I searched his eyes, looking for some type of colour chaging contacts, looking for a Gotcha camera crew. But nothing.

"Oh my god, you're serious!" I was no longer sitting.

"I had to tell you darling, I know what I did was a mistake and I just-".

"Just what? You think I'll forgive you? You want my forgiveness Jason?" he nodded.

"Forgiveness Sterling, is for people who make mistakes," I couldn't stop the tears from stinging my vision.

"I got buzzed at Jacks party and-"oh hell no.

"At Jack's party? Two weeks ago?!" how could he? What did I do to deserve this? I've done everything anyone has ever asked me, other than had sex with this, this, child! "Mistakes are accidentally dropping a glass plate or forgetting milk at the store! You getting hopelessly drunk at that party and having a quickie in the bathroom is not a mistake!" I took one step away from him; he followed me and came closer.

"I missed you, it had been a month since I last kissed you and I couldn't help myself. It was dumb and I'm sorry! Please forgive me?" his hands were laced in mind, and in that split second I wish I never even came here. All this pain would not be rushing through me.

"You couldn't help yourself?" I said slowly, making him think I was calmed down and I would forgive me. Hell if he was wrong.

"Yes, please Alaska, I love you." He smiled warmly at me, but any affection to it was gone.

"You couldn't help yourself?!" my voice rose and I just began to notice all the workers staring. "You couldn't wait a month for me to get back? What are you twelve? Honestly! You couldn't tear your eyes away from some trashy blonde's tits for more than two seconds could you? Or keep your hands to yourself?" I was done with this. He began to plead; his attempts to bargain with me caused my reaction. I had begun to walk away but with him yelling after me, I turned around. A look of astonishment on his face as I looked him in those eyes. The ones I so desperately missed when I was away. The ones I fell for.

Then I smacked him. My hand next to my ear and I hit as hard as I could. I am not the type for violence. But bitch slaps to a cheater? Those are my favorite.

"We are done Jason. Go have sex with some skank you picked up off the corner." With that I left, his face red as tears threatened him. I didn't even turn around.

Adam noticed my anger; you could practically see the heat evaporating from me. He left us to silence, which was all I could ask for. My brother paid more attention to me than my parents did.

"Adam?" I asked as we hit a red light. He turned to look at me, holding my gaze.

"Yeah kid?" he placed a hand on my shoulder. The searing sensation from my sunburn had no effect on me right now.

"I need some money for the swear jar," we chuckled and the light turned green. I knew what was going to happen tonight. I was going to run upstairs and cry until I had no more tears to give. I was going to cuddle with my Hello Kitty blanket I got when I was a child. Cheesy pop songs would blare through my stereo and I was going to sing along as the pain left with my tears. But it would always be there. Even after I stopped crying, the pain would always be evident as it chipped a little piece of innocence from my heart today.

Then an abrupt left turn happen, jarring my head in all its un-comfortability. My eyebrows rose slightly and I tried to say something but, the disregarded lump in my throat the size of Texas stopped me.

"You little sis, need some strawberry ice cream," he forced a weak smile and I could see his white knuckles tighten on the wheel, even threw the dark night. I smiled and leaned my head on his shoulder, even in the tight space, I wanted closure.

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 N/A: You know it's only because I love you right? Why are boys so impatient for sex? Honestly, have some class!

So how much do you hate Jason? I do, he hates himself, and he wanted me to tell you guys XD. His aunt hates him, Adam hates him, hell I bet Kim Jong Un hates him. (This isn't surprising because as the leader of Northern Korea, you hate everybody.)

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