You haven't seen him in a year. Not since he's been on tour. Life of a Rockstar, right? Not that you cared about any of that. You were anything to him and he wasn't anything to you. At least that's what you thought. There would be no changing of your mind about this. There hasn't been a change of your mind since this started 2 years ago. This being your situation with him. Your fuck buddy situation.
There would be no changing of your mind about this even 2 years later. You were simply what you would call his fuck buddy. Well, at least that's what you call it because now you have the nickname of the rocker's girl ever since a photo of you kissing him had surfaced on the internet last year.
No one knew your name. They did know your face. And that's about it with news of that. Of course you didn't say anything because why out yourself like that. And neither has he even though those are all the questions he gets nowadays. Even with the interviews he does it is bound to be a question asked about the situation.
But he never denies it or claims that it's true. He always says he has nothing to say and that's when fans lose it. Because they can't stand to not know the situation. They can't stand to not know the reason behind the photo or how the photo was taken. Or who the person actually is in the photo kissing him. And it's funny because he has never told them about it. He's never told them what to think or how to feel. He's never told them anything other than he had nothing to say.
That's all that they had to work with and yet they were going crazy. They should know better than to ask him because after all he did like that his private life was private. Sure he was a rockstar with money and fame but his private life is still his private life. So he didn't have to tell anybody anything. Especially not about the woman he was seeing if you could even call it that. Which you wouldn't. He wasn't seeing you.
You were fucking. That's it. But it didn't really feel like it anymore. It wasn't just about sex and it hadn't been for a while now. That's what you kept telling yourself though. It wasn't and you were still his fuck buddy. He wasn't seeing you and he certainly wasn't dating you. Not even close. So he can't tell you anything because there is nothing to tell.
Right now everything was complicated. You wished you could go back to 2 years ago when you first started this. 2 years ago you were still a senior in college. You weren't supposed to be where you are now. But 2 years ago you were stupid enough to agree to sleep with a certain Rockstar and have him be your fuck buddy.
It was the biggest mistake of your life and now it has turned into something that you had not expected it to turn to. Back then you were working as a bartender and had a small apartment that you could barely afford. It was the cheapest thing you could find in the city and you had been doing good. Until that night 2 years ago. The night him and his band came into the bar you worked at.
