2325 - 8385 - Hyunlix

Talk.

Hyunjin pov.

My parents called me down as soon as I came back from work.

I changed my clothes and went down to see both of them sitting near the dinning table talking something serious.... literally the vibe is flowing till here.

"Ma, Pa you wanted to talk something?" I asked as  they nodded gesturing me to sit between them

It's suspicious how sweet they are being....it's totally sus....

"Well you know, you literally 23 now?"

My mom said as I nodded feeling nervous a little

"We were thinking why don't you get married? Like we know you like boys so we found this really nice boy, want to see him?" My mom said as i sat there processing information and when I did I was like NO... NOT SO EARLY.... INFACT NO MARRIAGE PLEASE

"NO I don't want to marry" I got up but was pulled back down

"Listen to us"

"No I'm not going to, no way I'm getting married soo soon in my life infact I don't w-"

My mom hit my lips stopping me from completing the sentence

"Don't speak like that, The boy is really good and nice he will be the perfect match for you baby. Just marry him" i shook my head as no.

I didn't want to get married soo fast, I was not ready for this

"Please nooo, I'm not ready"

I pleaded with glossy eyes as their eyes softened

"We know baby, but it's ok..you can take your time and tell us the result tomorrow. Just tell yes! Take all your time to think about him, he is really amazing boy"

She didn't just tell that, I looked at my father who agreed with her pleading me to get married to that unknown human being.

I simply nodded not knowing what to tell as they let me to my room.

I laid on my bed with tears in my eyes

It was not like I'm too young for marriage but the fact that everything around me is soo toxic that it's scary.
My Father always insults my mother whenever he gets angry, doesn't care about her feeling does the minimalist for her while My mom does everything for him she misses something he yells at her and never apologizes.

It hurts ok? They think I don't know about this or it's quite normal but it's not...the fact that My mom still in this marriage and never takes her stand while sticking by my father's side telling that he stressed as he is getting old...it's all ok

It's normal.

And I'm scared of that normalisation, I don't want to trashed around by my husband. It's scary how all the curse words and raising voice is soo common and generalized...it's scary.

I'm scared.

I can't tell them, I'm scared of marriage because of them or any other couple around me.

They are all sweet and full of love at start but as time goes by love gets replaced by responsibility and it shatters everything, every ounce of love they had as just going with life feels too much.

I'm scared of everything changing overtime.

I don't want to get married.

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"Mom please not again, How many times do I have to tell you I don't want to marry? Like I literally work soo much for soo long that I'm sure my partner will not get enough time for me. I get snappy sometimes sometimes really bad, I don't want to hurt them. So please for god's sake stop this madness"

Felix shouted already feeling defeated at his parents countless tries...it's just too much.

"Awwhh you are thinking about your husband before you even married him, how sweet and you tell you can't take of that baby? I don't believe you. Marry him my son"

"I'm not marrying my mother"

Felix mocked the same way getting out of his home to attend probably the 10th meeting of his day.

Look he is not rich, he has to pay bills of their home...he has to go separate when he gets married orelse his parents will eat his husband alive with their mockery or words and he doesn't have enough savings for it.

It's too much to bare for him and he's doesn't want to burden his husband nor consider him as burden and hurt him.

It's not fair and his parents really don't get it!!

He is too busy making time for himself or his parents, how will he look and take time for the new family member? When  he has a lot on his hands...it's scary..mit really is.

He wouldn't lie but he does want to get married and have a sweet love filled life till death with his only husband but it's not always fairy tales.

He doesn't have time and Time is important in marriage.

He isn't romantic well that's another issue..he can't really get his husband easily.

He is too realistic and harsh sometimes that he fears he would hurt the other.

Because if he does..

He won't know how to apologise..

He really doesn't!

He was good some years back but when his work started straining him...he lost every good in him.

He doesn't want to marry.

He doesn't want to scare and make the other feel unloved with his behaviour.

He doesn't want to...

And he will not..

"I'm not marrying anyone"

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Hiiii

I don't know how this is going to be but I really wish you all like it.