Wednesday 3rd September 2015
(After school)
Zara did help me but he wanted to talk. He pulled me away from the others and we started talking, well he started talking. I just froze like I was afraid to talk to him. In a way I was, I guess but even if I did talk I wouldn't have known what to say. He started talking sweet at first, you know, how have I been, how's my mum, how's my sister, all that. Then he came out with it. He started to say stuff like 'its good to move on sometimes' and 'you've got to find the right person even if it hurts someone else'.
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"What do you mean the right person?" I don't know what to feel right now. Angry? Upset? Hurt? I just don't know.
"You know I love you you with every bit of my heart but I just don't feel the same as I did when we first starting dating".
"I swear I can change just please don't do this to me. Please!". I could see he was just as upset about this as I was.
"Don't. Just don't please don't cry". He pulled me against his chest and hugged me tight, then wiped my tears. He looked right at me with his big blue eyes. I stared back long and hard. I could see fear in his eyes, like something was bothering him. He looked away and then said,
"It's not you that needs to change. I'm sorry. Just know that I love you".
A long moment of silence as the words 'I love you' echoed in my mind. For some reason I can't help thinking he looked scared. More than anything. I'm not hurt because I know he loves me and I'm not angry because there's nothing to be angry about. I'm worried, for him I don't know what's going on but I'm going to find out one way or another.
Thursday 4th September 2015
Today at school I talked to everyone I knew. Not exactly about the breakup but about Luke, in general. You know, what they thought of him. I talked to some of his friends but not all of them that would just be weird. Last night I told Zara everything. I know I said I didn't feel hurt but I cried anyway because I knew she would be there for me. She's always there for me. But I must admit she was acting a bit weird, like she knew something I didn't. I'm sure it's nothing though she tells me everything so it's probably just her period talking. The girls kept asking me about what went on yesterday but I didn't want to make things to complicated so I just told them that we broke up. Solonya was the first to fuss over it, as usual. Then Nevaeh and then Lucy. Lucy doesn't really worry about other people as much. She always believes that whatever decision you make is a good one. She doesn't care what other people think either and I like that that about her. I have such good friends don't I? 😘
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Hey guys hope you liked this chapter. I know it's short but it's the best I can do right now. Soooooooo tired! Love you guys so so much and don't forget to
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