Abusive Chris

Chapter 1 "Agreed to devil and hell"

Everything started so harmless. So nice. But that changed. A lot.

Chris and I had fought a lot lately, and that mostly for no reason. With the time going on, he also got louder, and on that day, it escalated.

"Oh, come on, I told you I'd work longer."

"No, you didn't!"

He yelled back at me, and I was glad that Tamara wasn't home. Later even more.

"I told you not to be so loud, please!"

Yes, I had raised my voice also a little, but long not as loud as him. But I lived in a flat and often I did with a very young adult, so it would be nice if he wouldn't -

Ouch.

I felt a pain getting worse on my left cheek.

He had slapped me. Chris. My. Boyfriend. Had. Slapped. Me.

What the fuck.

Slowly, I raised my hand up to it and felt tears welling in my eyes. Why had he done this? Had I been so annoying? I couldn't believe it. What now?

Just in that moment, I noticed that Chris had his mouth covered with his hands, obviously also shocked about what he had just done. Then, he started apologizing to me.

"I- I am so sorry! It was just a hard day, and we fought so much lately, and you were just so-"

"W-wait! Now it is my fault?"

"I mean kinda... but that's not the point. Sorry. I will never do it again."

Did he just say that it was my fault and then thought I would stay in a relationship with him? Funny.

"You'll never have the chance to do it again because I break up with you!"

That was an understandement.

"I I swear I will never do it again, ok? I am so sorry please give me a chance! I want that this with us work dont you?"

I didnt know about that. I liked him, yes. But so much that Id risk to be abused by him? I didnt know if I really wanted to try it, if he was worth the risk. But also, was this deep enough? I had the feeling that there was something missing in this relationship. A kind of connection between us, a deep connection like the one between me and Tim. No! I hadnt just thought that! Well, obviously I did but why? Anyway, I shoved this thought aside and thought about the relationship with me and Chris again. I mean, I could try it. There was no other person I wanted to be in a relationship in, or more, I was sure there was nobody who wanted to be in a relationship with me. Who without Chris would want that. Wait, why did I think so? Didnt matter. (It did but I didnt realized that in that moment.)

"Fine. We'll try to make this work. You try to get your anger under control and I-"

Can't believe that I said that,

"will try to be less annoying."

And with that, I had agreed with the devil, to step into hell.