That night I stayed up till 2am watching my old comfort youtubers thinking about what I had done. Above all else I feel like I have betrayed the only person who cared about me. When I was 9 my dad moved to new york, leaving my family just me and my mum. Originally I had blamed mum for driving away my dad but I had learned to deal with my home situation. While everyone laughed and made jokes the only person who cared for me and made me feel normal was Ant. He makes me feel like I'm just like everyone else. I could sit here feeling sorry for myself and pretending my life is the centre of this world, but for mine and his sake I will find a way to admit what I have done. He doesn't deserve to live in this fake world and most importantly he doesn't deserve such a shit girlfriend.
Hey ant
Anteater: hey babe is everything okay
I need to talk to you
Anteater: what's going on babe talk to me
I'll be over soon
Anteater: okay I love you
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I pull up outside his house and mentally prepare myself for what i'm about to do. I walk in the door and Ant greets me at the door. "Hey babe, are you okay" he says trying to hug me yet i pull away. " look ant can we go to your room? I need to talk to you "I say, my face draining of its colour. "Yeah sure come on" we both walk to his room and he sits on his bed while i sit at his desk. "So Ant I have been thinking alot about us and-" "are you breaking up with me" he says looking concerned "no just let me finish so you know how you couldn't drive me home yesterday well spider drove me home and we got to talking and things kinda escalated-" "babe what are you saying". "I'm saying that me and spider hooked up and i'm sorry and you don't deserve such a shit girlfriend but i really do love you Ant, i'm sorry for all of it and i'm just so sorry '' I said crying and just trying to get it all out. "Out" he said pointing to the door "what" i said confused "you heard me get out of my house" he said very sternly "please ant just let me explain we were both-" i said trying to get him to listen "so you dont say i love you back act like everythings okay then fuck my best friend look just go ang i can't deal with you right now" he said with no emotion. I know it's over. I take 1 last look at his house and walk out his door and drive home.
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Boys will be Bugs
Romance"Nothing makes sense when im not with you" Ant and Angie have been dating for a year but now shes hooked up with his best friend what will happen to their relationship Spider x oc x Ant (a love triangle not a threesome)
