Book Two - Just Enjoying My Life.... Right? (Completed)

Chapter 13

Here's the new chapter. Just a word of warning... there's a few twists and turns in this chapter. Enjoy!

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My mouth has gone dry. I don’t know if it’s because of the alcohol from last night or the shock proposal. Either way, I can’t get my answer out. I have to say no, I just have to. It will be rude of me to say yes and lead him on; especially now I know how I really feel. Or is it how I feel? This is another reason not to tell him because I’m still not 100% certain. I know I’ll break his heart. No I don’t want to keep secrets but maybe I should just see it out? I mean this is just a phase I’m going through, it’ll pass in time. Right?

God I don’t know!

Realising that Sam is looking at me expectantly I realise I have to give an answer. Well one thing I know is my decision is final. I have to say no and I have to tell him everything. If it means we have a big row and break up then so be it. It means we’ll both have time to get ourselves together then talk properly another time. Sam will realise he proposed too soon and I can live my life.

Unfortunately my brain has other ideas. I open my mouth to say no but that’s not what comes out.

“Yes!” I say instead and instantly have to stop myself from slapping my hand over my mouth.

Oh god. Why did I say that?

I open my mouth to correct myself but it’s too late. Sam embraces me so tightly and I know I can’t back out now. It’s too late. As Sam kisses me tenderly and whispers sweet nothings in my ear, I don’t have that same spark as usual. It’s gone. In its place is a feeling of dread.

“Oh Emily, I’m so happy!” Sam exclaims kissing me again. “You have no idea how happy I am.”

I force a smile and kiss him softly. “Me too. Now as much as I would love to drag you to bed right now, I need to sleep.”

Sam nods in understanding and stands up. “What were you saying before? What happened last night?”

Now what can I say? I know I said no secrets but suddenly this has gone one step too far. I fear I’m going to have to lie until I figure out what to do.

“Oh it’s nothing.” I lie. “I’m afraid I had a little too much to drink and I left Nancy and Jason at the club. I decided to walk back and got a little lost. I even think I tripped over at one point but it’s a bit of a blur now.”

I wish it was a blur. The events of last night are as clear as day in my mind and I want to forget all about them.

Sam shakes his head and grins. “I’m going to have to keep tabs on you. Next time you may get some guy trying to pick you up.”

The guilt I feel heightens at this remark. I know he’s joking but he wouldn’t be joking if he knew the truth.

“That wouldn’t happen to plain old me.” I manage to say with a fake smile.

“Oh it would.” Sam says kissing the top of my head. “You don’t realise what people see in you. Now you go back to sleep. I presume you won’t be joining us today?”

I crawl back under the covers. “No I’m too lazy drowning in my sorrows.”

Sam comes up and tucks me in. “That’s ok. I’ll come and check on you later. I love you, Emily.”

He turns to walk away but before he leaves I call out to him, “Can you not tell anyone about the engagement yet? I think I’d prefer if we announced it together.”

I have no idea how many lies I’ve told today but it’s too many, that’s all I know. I’ll be struck down by a bolt of lightning soon enough, I’m sure.