Sinful Love

Chapter 5: The Kiss

My head swung forward, hurting my neck.

"OW-" I said, brushing the hair out of my face. The bus had stopped. I had slept through the whole 5 hours... or so I thought. I unbuckled myself and stood up.
"Woah, woah, woah! Why so eager to get off the bus it's only a quick stop." said Alex, holding my arm I scoffed and rubbed my eyes.

"So, we're not at camp?" I pouted, still rubbing my eyes. Alex laughed softly and shook his head. I grumbled and sank back into the bus seat. If only that idiot of a bus driver hadn't off braked so hard. I closed my eyes and sighed. Then Alex stood up. I opened my eyes slightly. I could just feel the black rings under my eyes.

"Come on, there's a nice lake we can chill by." said Alex, holding out his hand. I looked at his hand and then at him. I grumbled again and placed my hand in his.

"All right grumpy pants-" strained Alex, pulling me to my feet.

"Do we HAVE to...? I just wanna sleep..." I said grumbling. Alex pulled me into the path leading straight down the bus. I was still half asleep and VERY tired. All I wanted to do was sleep but I was too tired to even say that I wanted to. I opened my eyes slightly, trying to shade my eyes from the sun. I saw some couples and friends on the bus kissing, laughing, talking and whatnot. Then we reached the exit of the bus. I didn't want to take that big step down. I was too tired. I felt like I was hung over, even though I knew I wasn't. Alex let go of me and got off the bus. Then he held his arms out and up towards me.

"Come on." said Alex, still holding out his arms. I smiled and jumped into his arms. He put me down and looked at me. His hands were still on my waist and our faces were inches apart. Was this it? Was this going to be my first REAL kiss? I could feel his breath breathe lightly on my lips. I looked into his eyes. Then it happened. I plunged myself forward and placed my arms around his neck. We held that position for a few seconds before I gently and slowly pulled away. I looked down at the floor, my hands still around the back of his neck. It was such a weird feeling. Lips on lips. I couldn't explain how it felt but I knew it felt good. Alex looked forward.

"Damn-" he said with sarcasm. I couldn't tell if he liked it or not. I never knew Alex to be the joking kind, but I guess he was.

"That..." I said, trying to think of what to say.

"Thats my first kiss..." I said, looking at him. He looked down at me. I expected him to say it was his first too, but he didn't.

"Shall we go to the lake now...?" he asked. Was he not going to comment on the kiss? Was it not his first?! The fact he didn't say anything about the kiss agitated me.

"Sure." I said, taking my hands off his neck and holding his hand in mine. We walked hand in hand along a wooden pathway over a long line of dirt. It wasn't your typical concrete pathway, but I was to focused on the feeling of his lips on mine. I was shocked at the fact I have never thought of Alex physically even though I so desperately wanted to be with him. We continued to walk along the path in silence. I glared at all the little bugs and leaves falling and flying around. I wasn't a nature girl. In fact, I hated nature.

"It's beautiful." said Alex, looking up and around the forest. Specs of sunlight crept through the gaps between the trees. I looked up. I tried to find the beauty in where I was, but me being me I just couldn't.

"I guess." I said watching my feet walk along the path. Alex sighed. I saw the end of the path and the glistening lake. Although it was glistening, I hated it. A pond filled with ducks and students from our grade buying food and running around. So much for a romantic setting. A few minutes past and we were at the edge of the lake. Alex sat down and I sat down next to him. I stared at the water. I was motionless. Pictures and faint echoes of my patronised screams and cries for help at Ashly's party consumed my mind. I breathed heavily. I wondered if Alex could notice. But if Alex didn't, then another boy did. Because only seconds after my phase of memories and echoes a boy sat next to me. Alex had his arm around me. I looked at the boy.

"Hi." he said. I didn't know his name, but he was cute. He had brown hair and light freckles over his nose and some parts of his cheeks. His hair was slightly fluffy but also messy in a cute way. He was wearing a plain grey jacket and denim jeans.

"Hey..." I said looking him in the eyes. Almost as soon as I said 'hi', Alex leaned forward and looked at the boy. I didn't realise Alex was looking, but if I had I wouldn't have been as friendly.

"I'm Levi. I saw you admiring... or staring at the lake." he said smiling warmly. I smiled back.

"Thats such a cute name..." I said tilting my head to the side. I didn't want to sound like a bitch, but I was interested. Then I felt Alex's hand slide off my shoulder and I looked over at Alex and he looked pissed.

"She's with me buddy, move along thanks." scoffed Alex. I hate to exaggerate, but he looked as if he was going to explode with seething rage. Levi got up and sighed.

"If you say so, just tryna' be friendly." said Levi, standing up and leaving. Alex scoffed and lay down on his back with his hands at the back of his head. I was concerned he didn't put his arm around me. Although I was concerned, I wasn't stupid. He was mad another guy was chatting me up. I could just tell. I sat there, gritting my teeth and thinking what to say to break the unbearable tension.

"It was nothing." I said, turning to him. He just continued closing his eyes as if he didn't hear. I waited a few seconds before he decided to answer.
"Nothing? That's the exaggeration of the year." said Alex, still clenching his eyes shut. I scoffed.

"It was nothing! I swear!". The last two words was a yell. Alex opened his eyes, sighed and then sat up to face me. Our faces inches apart yet again. I made a pouting face, hoping he would sympathise. He just looked at me and then sighed.

"Alright. I'll trust you." he said, laying back down and putting his hands at the back of his head. I smiled and lay down next to him.

"ALL RIGHT KIDS! BACK IN THE BUS!". I groaned. Alex sat up and so did I.

"I don't wanna go back." I pouted.

"We don't exactly have a choice." said Alex standing up. Alex grunted as he stood up. He offered me his hand.

"Come on." he said holding out his hand. I looked at his hand, knowing we had to go back. I grumbled as I took his hand, and he pulled me to my feet. We walked hand in hand yet again back to the bus. The walk back was silent. When we got back to the bus, we sat down in our seats again. We were one of the first people on the bus. I sighed and leaned my head on his shoulder. "You tired again?" he asked. I could feel him move his head to look down at me. I sighed peacefully.

"Yeah." I said cuddling up closer to him. He laughed softly.

"All right then,." I looked up at Alex and he looked down at me. Our faces were, again, inches apart. I smiled and so did he. I leaned towards his face for a kiss. He didn't lean forward, but he didn't back away. I didn't know if he wanted to me to kiss him, but I did it anyways. I closed my eyes and tried to explain to myself how it felt, but I couldn't identify the feeling. I was expecting the kissing feeling to at least feel like another physical touch. But maybe kissing was just a whole new experience. He pulled away and smiled. I smiled back. I never considered the feeling of his warm smile fake. But some part of me was telling myself to consider the fact he might not like me. After all, I was the one making all the moved. I closed my eyes and cuddled up to him yet again. I felt him exhale and I relaxed. Some people would think being able to feel every big or small breath he would take would be weird. But it was comforting. Knowing he was so close. I dozed off for a while in the comfort of his arms before becoming slightly more conscious due to the acceleration of the bus. I opened my eyes slightly just to see the back of the bus seat in front of me. I sighed and closed my eyes yet again. I was too tired to bother cuddling up to him, so I went back to sleep.