Toxic Friendship

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Okay, 8th grade. I am excited! And the best thing is... YES MY CLASS IS WITH EMILY! I walked through the halls. Okay, it shouldn't be hard to find my homeroom, right? I texted Emily and she told me the class that we were in. I started walking to the exact class she told me. There she is! 

"EMILY!" I ran and hugged her tight.

"I am so happy that we're together!" Emily said with a smile on her face.

"I know! Where do u sit?" i asked her.

For the first week, we dont have lessons. Only introductions and setting up our classroom. The sad thing is, after a first day at school i went to a family holiday with my family. So i was absent for at least a week, i dont really remember. 

After a week, i went back to  and somehow someone already picked me a locker. I opened my locker and put my bag in. I was gonna go inside the classroom when i saw Emily. She saw me. I knew she saw me. But she was with this girl named Sienna. She looked at me, i looked at her but she didnt say a thing to me. She was talking with Sienna. Damn that hurted. But then i went inside the classroom and just trying to ignore what happened. Then, she went in. With Sienna of course... She talked to me.

"Oh hi Ally! You're back!" She said, happily, but i dont know why i feel that's fake. I was thinking 'bitch, you saw me. i know u saw me. and u just ignored me bitch.' I wanted to say that to her sooo badly. But i kept quiet. I only smiled and nodded. 

Before we know it, me, Emily and Sienna become friends together. And that was cool. At least she doesn't forget about me. But i couldnt help but think that Emily would choose Sienna over me. I dont wanna think about it. So i didnt. We become friends for a couple of months. Until i dont know whos idea it was to make a friendgroup with the boys also. So we picked out some boys. Allan, Alex and Xander. Xander was my friend since kindergarten. So we made a groupchat and become a friendgroup. 

That time i was having a crush on a boy named Ryan. I had a crush on him since 1st grade. And somehow the whole form knows. Including Ryan, duh. And one time my classmate screamed as loud as she can.

"ALLY!!! COME HERE! THERE'S RYAN HERE!" she said with Ryan like literally beside her. 

I Felt like i wanna disappear! I dont like this! I wanna move to another school! I felt like killing her. But ofc humanity stopped me. I live my life just like before. Without talking to Ryan ofc. Luckily, his class is not the same as mine. So i can avoid him.

Meanwhile, in our friendgroup, Sienna and Alex likes each other. They're acting like they're dating (They're not). Alex even once called Sienna his 'cat'. Ugh. I felt like i wanna throw up. But i couldnt help but feeling a little jealous. But NO, i cant like him obviously. So i forced myself not to. 

One day, I forget why but Sienna outgrew our friendgroup. All i remember was that we all think she's toxic. She's really dirty minded and well... yeah... So we all avoided her. And it was just the 5 of us in the group.

After maybe a month, me and Emily started being friends with a girl named Keyla. So basically we replaced Sienna with Keyla. And i can see that sienna doesnt like that. I felt bad for her at first but seeing Emily already friends with Keyla i forget about my doubts.

After Sienna left, Emily started to ship me with Alex. Which i didnt accept at first. The thing is, Alex and Emily ever liked each other. Now they say they 'dont' anymore. Do i believe it? Fuck no. So the whole group started to ship us. I didnt do anything to about it. And neither did Alex. So they keep shipping us.