~ Our Heartless Fate

Mistake

Maryn:

We all had dinner and played board games for sometime. We chit-chatted and watched TV. But Kyle was not there with us. I could still feel his warm lips on mine and the feel of his soft hair between my fingers all while sitting between our friends. He didn't even come to eat dinner with us as he left urgently without telling anyone anything. Only I met him accidently when he was leaving like his butt was on fire 🙄. And as a natural understanding between Kyle and me, I made up an excuse in front of all our friends as to why he left and where was he gone. 

I was sitting in my room while everyone went to bed long ago and It's fucking 3:00 am now. Where the fuck is he? Was he okay? I messaged him but none of my messages were seen which gave me a bad feeling. I told myself - He's ofc okay, you are making a big deal out of this. It's not like this is the first time he is out for so long and didn't see your messages. It's okay. He is fine.

I was worried so I didn't even slept. Time passed as my eyes and mind were focused on the changing digits of the clock. Suddenly my head jerked up when I heard the voice of the door getting closed of Kyle's room. HE'S BACK. THANKGOD. I blew out a long breath and went to his room. I softly knocked and after a few minutes, a beautiful but sweaty face came into my view as the door opened. There was a crease between his eyebrows like he was frustrated or something but as he saw me, that crease disappeared and his face became stone-cold. I was about to ask if he was okay but he said, "Sorry Maryn, It was a mistake. We never should've kissed. Forget that kiss and let's behave like it never happened", and with that, he shut the door. 

What the hell was that ?!!!!!! Everything around me faded and my face started getting hot with anger and many unexplainable feelings. The little comfort bubble inside my head burst as I repeated his exact words in my mind on a loop and I tried my best not to cry cuz I felt soo stupid and dumb. I went to my room while my insides were screaming and scolding me. 

I couldn't stay here, Absolutely not when we kissed, he called it a mistake and told me to forget it. It was too embarrassing and insulting for me. I packed my bag while the tears forming in my eyes were threateningly close to falling down. NO, I'll not cry. I carefully stepped out of the villa and booked a cab all the while holding the spare key of my house in my hands tightly as my overthinking took my mind to a very negative place.

I was in my house in half-an-hour and laid in my bed while messaging our group chat to inform my friends about my sudden departure because I knew that if I didn't, they all would be banging at my door first thing in the morning, except... 

Group chat Name : Our Sextet 

Me : Hey guys, so sorry for leaving like that. I am okay and everything is okay. Just that mom called me and asked me to come home as she needed to urgently take care of a situation at her office. 

I put my phone on silent and let out a sigh. It was fucking painful to feel like a dumbass who don't even deserve anyone. I laughed dryly at how messed up things became. It only took one kiss, our first kiss and so called the mistake to turn a comfort bond into a awkward relationship. Even if he won't be awkward and pretend like that never happened, I wasn't that kind of person that could easily forget something like this, especially when it meant so much for me and nothing for him. 

My emotions overflowed and I let my tears fall on the covers as my pillow consumed my screams. The only thought I had now was that " Things are gonna change now and I'll play this pretend game but he won't get the permission to flirt with me, touch me or do anything that would deepen this aching feeling of my chest."

My tears dried as sleep took over me due to the exhaustion of screaming and sobbing. 

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I woke up at the sound of my mom shouting and knocking at my door, "Maryn, are you sleeping in there? When did you come sweetheart?" 

Oh Fuck!! I never thought of any excuse to give to my mother. I quickly came up with a reply and said, "Yes Mom it's me in here. I'll be downstairs in 10 mins. I'll tell you everything but can you just make a cup of coffee for me?" She said, "Sure sweetie. And your brother is coming from college today so we're having dinner at 9." FUCK!!!!!! Russell, my older brother, who can read my any emotion no matter how much I try to hide it, was coming today. And whenever he came, our family and Kyle's family always had dinner together. Life do have different ways of torturing me. 

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Hey everyone, 

Sorry I am not able to post much as I am rlly busy. I know the chapter might not be That good but do tell me in the comments if you liked it or not ?

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