"It happened again." ~ Stan x Kyle (Style)

You came back? Forever?

(Back to stans POV!! There's also bojack horseman reference here)

"Aw look who couldn't last 24 hours without me" I said whilst turning to Kyle who looked physically and mentally worn out.
"What did you take?"
"Nothing just smoked a shit ton of weed? Why did you come back? Thought you were too scared of the commitment?"
"Because I'm not gonna sit and watch you destroy yourself again."
I looked away from him slowly and went to looking at the lava lamp
"Stan you're getting bad again I'm not letting it happen, your blood is on this shirt" he said whilst unzipping his jacket to reveal that he was still wearing my shirt.
He came and sat with me on the couch, I was leaned back along with man spreading but this time Kyle did something else, he put his legs over mine.
"It's weird to have someone know you when you don't actually know yourself."
Kyle looked at me and I just kept speaking
"I wish I knew how to treat people properly, and I do love you, by the way. As much as I'm- capable of loving anyone."
Kyles eyes went to my arm, there were uneven cuts down the left arm.
"It doesn't get better and it doesn't get easier, I can't keep lying to you and and myself. Im poison, I come from poison, I destroy everything and everyone I go near."
"Stan I-"
"I have nothing to show for the life I have lived so far-"
"Stan."
I turned to him, I could tell he didn't want to maintain eye contact with me as he was scanning my face, jawline, eyes, lips anything.
"You're not poison. We'll get you sorted out."
"Kyle I feel like my mind is trapped in one spot and no matter how hard I try to move forward my mind isn't letting me, I end up falling into the same place YOU get me out of."
I looked away from Kyle and went for a cigarette but before I could put it in my mouth Kyle took my head and turned it towards him, he scanned every part of me as if I was being stripped by his eyes but he soon said something,
"I- I love you, Stan. Poison or not. I uh, I like your imperfections. It Makes you less of a robot to anyone else, it's good to know others have emotions and aren't being controlled by the ones around them."..
"IFHY" by Tyler the creator started playing.
I pulled him to me and just made out with him, fuck, it was unbearable, I pulled away for breath but also muttered a "I love you Kyle-" before going back at it with him. It felt real. We slowly made our way to my room, taking short breaths to just glance at each-other, and soon the room door shut.

-

We both lay on different sides of the bed, I sat up a bit so I could have my cigarette but also looked over to see if Kyle was doing okay, he was checking out the bite mark I left him an hour earlier.

Fucked up or not, when there's nobody else around there will always be that one bright beam of light to save your day, not everyone will like you including yourself but it does get better if you try. It's not a one man job to be successful there will always be one person rooting for you whether that be your family, friends or even some random person you don't know. Not everything goes perfectly, no one's life is picture perfect like you imagine, the word love shouldn't be played around with either. For once I finally have a reason to feel better and finally do something with myself and not slice my arm for fun and come home shitfaced, instead I can appreciate the little things like how hes trying his best or how I try to count his freckles on his face each time he looks at me. What I mean is I never knew the right person for me was right in front of me.

"Did you know that gerbils have to live in pairs and if separated could die of heartbreak?" He said and looked at me.

Hopefully it'll be me and Kyle in every universe.