His Mistress

14

Markus's P.O.V.

I was quick to obey Athena as I knew I was in the wrong. I shouldn't have lied to her and I know I broke her trust. When I entered the play room a shiver ran through my body. This will be my first punishment with Athena and I was nervous. I had no idea what she would do to me. The possibilities were endless for what she could do. I was a very open person and I knew I could take a lot.

Quickly I undressed and kneeled by the door to the play room. Athena was taking her time to get here and it made my nerves that much higher. I wondered if this is what she felt when she was having her panic attacks. Never experiencing them myself I could only imagine what they were like.

Soon though I became worried, as she still hadn't come into the play room. Against my better judgement I put on a robe and went to find her. She was no where in the house so I looked outside and saw her crying uncontrollably in my car. Her body was shaking and she looked like she couldn't breath. My feet took me as fast as humanly possible to her and I pulled the door open quickly.

"Athena, Athena breath, breath for me hunny. It's okay you're safe, nothing is hurting you here." I was not sure if this was something to say but I felt it right.

She wasn't really doing what I was telling her but when she looked up at me she jumped into my arms knocking us to the ground. I was a bit surprised but I let her snuggle into me. This was worrying me as I had never seen her like this before. She's always so confident and out going I forget sometimes that she does have panic attacks.

When she calmed down a bit I picked her up and carried her into the house. Setting her down on the couch I kneeled in front of her so I was in her line of sight. 

"What do you need Athena?" I asked.

She took a long p shaky breath before she answered me, "water please."

I nodded and quickly went to get her a glass of water. I rushed back and handed it to her shaking hand. She took small sips while taking deep breaths in between. Staying patient with her I sat down on the ground to give my knees a break.

"Why did you lie to me?" she finally spoke to me.

My heart fell, now knowing that I was the reason this happened.

"I was afraid you wouldn't be interested in me if you knew what I did with him."

A sigh fell from her lips and she rubbed up and down her face, "lying is a big thing for me. I've been lied to my entire life." 

The guilt was building inside me. It was never my intention to hurt her, and I hated feeling like this. However, I know I did this to myself.

"I never wanted to hurt you."

She shook her head, "I'm not hurt, I'm confused and upset."

"You have a right to be, I've broken your trust now."

Nodding to my statement she ran a hand over her face before looking at me again.

"Did I do something to show you that you had to lie to me?"

I couldn't help but stare down at the floor like a child in trouble, "no, I was being insecure about myself. I'm ashamed of what Paul and I have done together. I never wanted things to go that far between him and I."

It wasn't a lie this time, I really was ashamed at what Paul had talked me into. It had me question whether or not he was truly straight, but he swore up and down that he was. Now that I look back at it maybe I shouldn't have believed him.

"So what now?" she asked suddenly.

"What do you mean?"

"Do we continue with the contract or do we break this off now?"

My heart ached at the thought of us breaking the contract. That was not something that I wanted to happen. I loved being her submissive and I didn't want it to stop.

"I don't want us to break the contract" I basically pleaded with her.

She looked at me with unreadable eyes, "I'm not sure where to go from here."

"Do you still want us to be in this contract?" I questioned hesitantly.

As she also hesitated it had my heart racing with anticipation.

"Yes I still want this relationship, I'm just going to be setting some new boundaries around seeing Paul."

I was already nodding my head to her words eager to continue our relationship. Then it hit me, she called this a relationship.

"Relationship? You consider this a relationship?"

Seeming not to have caught what she had said until now her face reddened and she looked everywhere but at me.

"Don't you?" was her response.

A smile spread across my features as I nodded softly, "of course I do."

This had her smiling as well, "good."