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Taraji
Lighting up the perfectly rolled blunt I sighed in relief after the first inhale. I was stressed the fuck out.
My phone started to buzz for the 10th time this evening. Running one of my hands through my hair the reason for my stress and the recent conversation we had started to plague my thoughts.
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"So that's it?? You're going to throw us and everything away?!" Fantasia yelled with tears streaming down her face.
I scrunched up my face and continued pushing aside the ache in my chest from seeing her cry.
"What is everything Fantasia? The secret meet ups? Late night calls? Please tell me what this everything is..." I said harshly.
She released a sharp breath and attempted to wipe her eyes. It took everything in me to not walk across the room and kiss those tears away.
She doesn't belong to you.
Was what I kept having to remind myself over and over. "You don't mean that baby" She trailed off.
I huffed and nodded. "Yes I do...you don't-you aren't mine Fantasia. You never have been. I blame myself because I knew that and still continued but I can't anymore. You won't leave him and that's okay but that means I have to remove myself from this situation."
I watched as she shook her head.
"No! That's not true. I will leave him I just need time! Baby please I can't-you can't leave me. I need you. I love you!" She pleaded through her tears. I noticed she was starting to hyperventilate.
I sighed while rubbing my temples. Even though it was probably a bad idea I decided to walk across to her and grab her hands. She started to attempt to talk but I shook my head. I needed her to calm down first.
"Tasia shh breathe. You're going to make yourself sick. Deep breaths cmon you got it"
After she finally calmed down we sat on the bed. "Fantasia I love you more than you'll ever know but this just isn't enough for me anymore. I fell for you so hard and I can't keep being your secret. Yes I love you but I also love myself. I won't allow myself to be your mistress just because I love you."
I had to look away before those big brown eyes got me to change my mind.
"I'll leave him! I'll do whatever you want Raj just please don't go" Her voice cracked.
