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Rosalie

Rosalie,
When you cry i do more then ache
What about the demons I cannot face
Who thinks about me?
When I'm alone and cannot sleep

One day I'll be at someone's side
I'll think I've walked away from this all
Calling it lessons
or a wild ride
The farther we try to run,
Once the damage is done
Trying to convince and explain
In every way to minimize this pain.

The curse of a double edged sword
Will forever leave its mark
On the dooer,
and the one she and I tore apart.
Scars from my infidelity
Keep me from taking accountability.

I will make you my enemy.
Arrows aim
Ready,
Set
Go,
Repeating our story
Forever,
Infinitely scripted
in my bones.

Rosalie,
they say the truth will set you free
they don't talk about the realities
What does this make me
Is this what I'll be?
The day I regret is the day I become
Everything I never wanted to,
And then some.

I cannot be the person that you need
Everyday I watch a piece of you leave
To be in pain is brutal,
But to cause it and have no regard—
I don't know who I am.
I lost everything
by my own hand

Rosalie
When you're happy
and the tears are dry,
Don't let this fool you
I will think of your magic and your light.
The more I seem fine
Is the more I am passing the time
The story ending is unimaginable
You going—
is unfathomable.

Rosalie,
time will reveal
What my words cannot
Pride doused in anger
causes one to rot
I will find myself finding your clones
Hoping that my choices won't make me
End up alone

Rosalie,
When there is a new prospect
We convince ourselves we had
grown tired 
Find reasons to make the great escape
I am sorry I realized the irreversible damage,
Too little,
Too late.

Forbidden love is always the sweetest
Woven in passion and desire
I knew I was playing with fire.
Opening the trap door of;
I have never been heard this way,
When I returned home to you
At the end of each day.

I said the same things to her
I said to you
I know deep down for it to be true
I heard her say she has never felt
So liberated,
So free
So heard,
All while I gave you promises,
Gave you my word.

Rosalie
You are better than this
Every moment up until now has insulted
Your grace
Something I'll fight to one day face
Forgive the tormented soul
Who mercilessly stole

Your power,
Your will,.
Your integrity,
Your honor,
Your fight.

Rosalie
I need someone who will play.
One that will break and bend
To make sure I always
Get my way
You are more than a game of
Cat and mouse
Realize your worth,
burn down our house.

Therefore,
We both know what is true,
I cannot be with you.
I will never be the same
From the scars
I created zealously.

Rosalie,
You are more than an
I am sorry.

Sincerely,
Scars from
My Infidelity.