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Authors Note: Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been busy and didn't know what to write about. I finally found some inspiration. Not much else to say. I encourage you to vote, comment and continue to support me. ( Being a writer is hard y'all ). Happy reading!

I guess if we are going to cover my sexuality, we're going to need to start from the beginning.

Through the first years of school, I was a straight ally. I had always thought that dating a boy was kind of weird and gross, but I just assumed it was the cooties phase that everyone goes through in elementary school. In 3rd-4th grade, I was a mess. Kids started making fun of LGBTQIA+ as soon as I realized I was gay. It made it really hard to come out to them, and some of them stopped being friends with me. I think they didn't want me to have a crush on them, even though I just saw them as friends. The problem with telling people you like girls, as a female is the fact that some girls are super boy crazy. In fact, most of the girls I've interacted with are boy crazy. And by telling people you like girls, makes them think you are girl crazy, and you might be, but it makes things like locker room problematic. Everyone thinks you like them just because you are attracted to the same gender. ( This is just my opinion feel free to disagree ). Anyways, aside from my little rant, in 3rd-5th grade I was a mix between lesbian and bisexual. Sometimes I like boys and sometimes I didn't. And when I did have a crush on a boy( which was a rare occurrence ) it wasn't as meaningful as when it was a girl. Then in 6th grade, I decided I didn't really care for the time being and just labeled myself as queer. In 7th grade, things changed. My queer vocabulary was expanding and there were double the kids in our grade. The year started off as queer, and then around Halloween I was Pansexual, and then Panromantic. Then in a long car ride I learned about Polysexual and decided to change to that. Polysexual only lasted a few weeks because then I learned about Omnisexual. I am currently in my Omniromantic era...and proud of it!