Stepping through the double security gates I tried not to squirm when the guard patted me down for any concealed items, I knew I didn't have anything on me but I always had a fear that they might find something.
I looked towards the conversation tables, seeing Cash get placed down at one, wearing his grey juvy attire and looking a little worse for wear, like he hadn't slept, I had left Nan's this morning and decided to wear a pair of grey tracky pants that matched my grey hoodie, I guess me and Cash matched just a little unintentionally.
Walking over to the tiny table I slid down into the chair across from him
"I wish I could give you a hug right now" I whispered out to him, Cash gave me a sad smile, contact with inmates was prohibited so all I could do was talk with him
"It's good to see you B" Cash spoke looking like a lost boy who'd finally found some form of familiarity
"Is that my hoodie?" He asked laughing slightly breaking the looming cloud that hung over us, I smiled and nodded
"Yeah I been takin care of Nan and stayin at yours, maybe borrowing some if you're clothes aswell" I joked to him, it was like a wave of tension left his body when I said I was looking after Nan
"How's the old sheila doin" he smiled as he relaxed more into the chair
"Healthy as a horse, still her usual self, between me n you though I reckon she's missing her Dougy" I teased making him let out a small chuckle, I had a feeling this was the first time he had laughed in awhile which warmed my heart to know I could bring at least some form of happiness to him
"Whatcha doin living at mine" Cash diverted the conversation, I looked down as I felt the usual wave of emotions that came when I thought about being away from Chook, I might aswell tell him, and that's what I did, I told Cash about the crush I'd had on Chook since we were young, how things had progressed in the last term, embarrassingly rambled about loosing my v-card, about how I'd stormed home after Cash had gotten arrested and packed my things as I yelled harsh words, it felt good to finally tell someone about how I was feeling and to have them actually listen, it wasn't like he could run away I joked, but Cash listened intently to my words and nodded along as I told him everything showing no judgement in his face.
Taking in a deep breathe after my life storytelling I observed Cash for any negative reaction
"I won't bullshit you Bisca" he started before pausing to think about how to phrase his next words
"It's you're life and you're choice, and I know Chook can be fucked up in the head sometimes but I think you should listen to what he has to say" I sighed as I heard the one thing that had also been on my mind making me feel slightly better to hear it from someone else
"I'd also like to know if he had any play in what happened that night" Cash nodded, I nodded back in agreement, it would be for the both of us to know, to have that clarity of mind that Chook had been involved or not.
After our deep chat I bid Cash a farewell as our time was up, thanking him and blowing a kiss in his direction I turned and made my way out of the building, I was going to have to face Chook and I was going to listen to what he had to say.
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The next day:
The next day at school felt like it had been going on forever, I'd started the day by talking to Quinni, Amerie and Daren about how hurt I was that they'd just ran and ditched me at Chook's house, Amerie had given a half assed excuse while Quinni and Daren had apologised and admitted their mistake which made me thankful to them.
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EETSWA / Chook
FanficEETSWA (sweet - good - nice) Hibiscus, Bisca for short had grown up in the same environment as Chook and Cash. They had been together thick and thin, seen things, done things, but they always had each others back. Except the past couple years Bisca...
