𝙼𝚊𝚕𝚎𝚟𝚘𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚝

5.

"Seoul to Ankara"

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Moon took a taxi and went to the Seoul National Cemetery. Her heart was silent, it was heavy. More than it ever was. The silence was killing her inside out. The memories from her childhood started to rush inside her, as soon as she landed in Seoul. Everything about this city was a horrible memory for her.

The memories of her childhood were scattered here and there all over the city. It was like the city itself stole her voice out of her throat. The memory of leaving this place and being left alone to live the rest of her life.

From the park where her mother used to bring her, every weekend To the ice cream parlor they visited every now and then. She was not poor, Her dad earned a lot his whole life. They lived a great, ideal life. Until her 7th birthday. When her dad brought her mother's dead body instead of a chocolate cake.

She got a ticket to Turkey as her birthday gift. But the irony is that, it was a one way ticket. She never knew what was the reason behind all this chaos. Neither did she wanted to know. These things hurt her.

Soon, She reached at her destination. She paid for the ride and got off the taxi. She took her heavy steps towards her mother's grave. Remembering the day of her funeral. It was raining, There was no one except for a 7 years old girl and her dad.

She stood in front her mother's grave, Just like she stood here 15 years ago, and there she felt so little, frightened, unknown of what the future hold for her. Even though a lot of time has passed, Still it feels like she lost her just yesterday. She placed the Red Rose on her grave which she bought in her way to the cemetery.

"Look mom... I brought your favorite flower" She said in a low tone, Tears streaming down her eyes. Silently escaping the ocean inside her light brown orbs

"i know I'm too late to visit you... But look, I'm all grown up now! " She somehow managed to talk to her mother, even though her voice had this weight of sadness and other emotions like missing her

"Are you okay there!? " She kneeled down when she lost the power to even stand. It was like the ground sucked all the strength in her

"I live in Turkey now....I've got parents... And you know? My Turkish mother is just like you... *sniffs* *wipes off the tears* S-Soft hearted, Loving" She sobbed during her conversation

"She takes good care of me... She always did... Just like you"

"I don't know where dad is... But i don't want to know either... i hate him" She scoffed

"Who the fuck leaves their children like that? I lost you and then he just gave me away! Just like that!? Was it.. was it that easy!? " She whinned while sobbing

"He never showed up ever again... I'm telling you.. just for the record... In case... In case he's with you" She stuttered at her words, as her own words haunted her

"But i love my Turkish dad... He loves me a lot, He's really kind... Just like.... Just like dad was" She sniffed deeply while wiping off her tears, And it started to rain without a warning (It's just Seoul thing)

"Mom... " She bit her lips before bursting out in tears

"I miss you" She cried out loudly

"I miss you so fucking much!! " She rested her head on her hands which were placed on the ground

She was all drenched in rain, But she suddenly felt that the raindrops stopped falling on her. She sat straight and turned her head just to know if the rain stopped.