A LOSER - lost in abyss

#1 LAST STEPS TO SILENCE

The sun dipped low on the horizon, casting long shadows across the deserted playground. Amidst the fading light, Seraphina stood alone, her gaze fixed on the rusted swing set swaying gently in the evening breeze. Each creak of the chains echoed memories she had long tried to bury of laughter tainted by pain, of innocence shattered by darkness. As she traced the scars on her wrist.

"Finally, I'll find solace," she murmured, her voice heavy with sorrow , as she ascended towards the roof of the nearby tallest building.

In the dimming light of dusk, Sera stood alone, her words a mix of sadness and determination. Her eyes looked hollow, and her throat felt tight as she walked towards the tallest building nearby. At the top, she stretched her arms out to feel the wind one last time. "Before I change my mind again," she whispered, "I have to do this."

Sera's mind was full of memories flashing before her eyes as she walked towards the edge of the roof. She'd tried this before but always stopped herself. This time, though, she was set on her decision, her mind was .finally quiet. With a deep breath, she stepped forward, ready to face whatever came next.

As Sera made her way up the stairs toward the peak of the towering building, a distant echo from her past gently *caressed* her ears, a blend of comfort and sorrow. "Sera, my child," a tender voice *laden* with the weight of hidden scars , reached out from behind . With teary eyes, she turned, hoping to find her mother's presence, only to confront the emptiness that surrounded her. There was none to comfort her , to tell her that its not her fault , to stop her from taking that step , to convince her that she is worth being proud of .

Alone in her anguish, she grappled with the absence of warmth, the void left by unspoken words of love and pride. "Maybe, in the end, I'm simply unworthy of affection , " she muttered, a bitter laugh escaping her lips as she confronted her despair. "What sin did I commit to deserve this fate? Was my very existence a mistake?"

With a heavy heart, she turned away from the world she never truly embraced, her final steps a *solemn* recognition of the beauty that had *eluded* her.she never enjoyed the sunsets , the sunrise , the warmth of spring , the coziness of winter , the cheerful nights of new year's eve and hated the nights , those dark and cold nights which were difficult for her to tolerate. While she couldn't find joy in the wonders of nature, she found solace in the melancholy embrace of raindrops , the melody of her music, and the solace of solitude.

" I hope noone gets a daughter like me who is none other than a disappointment and headache in their parent's eyes " "I wish no one suffers as much as I have," she whispered, her words a *lament* for the life she never fully lived, the love she never received. And with one last breath, she embraced the unknown, her legacy a *testament* to the silent struggles of a soul lost in a world that never understood her pain.

**Word Meanings:**

1. **Caressed**: To touch or stroke gently and lovingly. In this context, it refers to the distant echo from Sera's past gently touching her emotions.

2. **Laden**: Heavily loaded or weighed down. In this context, it describes the tender voice being weighed down by the burden of hidden scars and pain.

3. **Solemn**: Serious, grave, or somber in manner or tone. In this context, it describes Sera's final steps as being serious and full of gravity as she approaches her decision.

4. **Eluded**: To escape from or avoid someone's grasp, understanding, or perception. In this context, it refers to the beauty of life escaping Sera's grasp, as she struggled to find joy in it.

5. **Lament**: A passionate expression of grief or sorrow. In this context, it describes Sera's whispered words as expressing her sorrow for the life she feels she never fully lived.

6. **Testament**: A statement or action that serves as evidence or proof of a particular fact or quality. In this context, it refers to Sera's final act as evidence of the silent struggles she endured in a world that couldn't comprehend her pain.

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