My Artist

My artist (end)

First held my hands as I said this,

Are you sure?, he asked

I said, they never told me that they have my dad's things like this after his death when they adopted me they never mentioned my dad ever.
Now if I know there is something which belongs to my dad I want it now they know I'm sensitive about everything related to dad that's why they said this now. After taking them I will cut all the remaining ties I have from them.

So when we have to leave?, First said this and I asked,

We? You don't need to first I will deal with them it's ok. You have work.

So what I can take leave for few days, and I won't let you go alone. You had to deal with them alone for these many years but now you have me and till I'm with you I won't let you be alone anywhere.

So can you stop crying now and tell me when should I book our tickets.

He said as he wiped my tears, held my face and placed a kiss on my lips.

That night when we went to sleep first was holding me tightly like someone would stole me from him.

Our flight was booked for next week and first took five days off from his work as he rarely takes any leave he didn't have any trouble for asking for it now.

We had our flight at afternoon so we reached Chiang Mai in the evening and we planned to meet our relatives the next day.

I called them to inform that I have reached Chiang Mai and will meet them the next day and they told me to meet them at their home.

I couldn't sleep at that night, I just tossed and turned when first woke up and looked me then asked me to get up we sat on bed and he held me from behind comforting me then said don't worry I'm with you and we will talk with them tomorrow then the rest of the days would be for us you have to show me the places you spend your childhood I want to know you more than why are you worried, hearing this I sighed then said, I know I'm not alone anymore but I am worried that would I be able to argue with them the way they raised me I never felt like I'm living with a family it was like someone is just spending money on me because they are obliged too and I never asked for anything from them as I never felt they are of my own.
They had to raise me only so the people around us won't question them. First listened to all of that patiently then said it's ok you couldn't talk I will now let's sleep.
He said then held me and stroked me head till I drifted to sleep.

The next day we took a taxi and went to my uncle's home while going on the way I saw something and told the driver to stop for some time then I got out and first followed me and asked what happened why did you got out and then I said look there that's my school, this was the place I realised my love for art, first backhugged me and said so from here you got your first love, I nodded and then said I will show you other places let's finish our work here first I feel a bit confident now.

We reached our uncle's house and I ringed the doorbell and first was holding my hand which was shaking from anxiety.

Then the door opened and it was from my aunt I tried to greet her but she just told us to come inside.

Inside the hall my uncle was sitting on the sofa and when he saw me the first thing he said, I thought you'll be alone who's the one with you?

I looked and first then I said, he's my boyfriend and yes he's together with me I will come straight to the point I'm here to get my father's things back so please give them back to right now so I can leave.

My uncle's expressions changed from confused to angry then he said, your father was a disgrace as he raised you alone and now you being gay and you didn't even showed up to our son's wedding you know how many people asked about you and we couldn't answer anything you know how much embarrassment your family has been to us just like you mother and your father this man will you leave you, you are an embarrassment to us.

I was listening to all of that and couldn't find the courage to speak first tried to speak but I signed him to not then his grip on my hand tightened and he said it's enough khaotung he has said a lot I can't hear this much from someone that too for someone I love and you Mr even though khao is not your own son but he is your family but you are not someone who cares about this word and how can you say that khao is an embarrassment he's my artist and I'm pretty sure with his talent he will get success you can't even imagine and you think everyone will leave him then I will prove this wrong. Saying this first faced me and said I promise you Khaotung Thanawat Rattanakitpaisan I will always be your side and don't worry everything this man is saying is rubbish you are amazing and I'm proud of you.

Saying this I was controlling my tears when my aunt came with a bage it was an old duffle bag which I realised was the one my father used to travel and then she gave it to me and said, I'm sorry khao that I stayed silent for these many years now please go and live your life peacefully.
I saw uncle looking at her with a disappointment as it was the first time I saw my aunt going against him then I held that bad greeted my aunt and held first hand and went outside I didn't even looked back.

After coming outside I looked at first and kissed him, I didn't knew what to say that was the only way I could thank him and express my love first kissed me back with same passion and held me from my waist.

I looked at him and said I want to go back to hotel room he called the cab for us and after reaching there we sat on the ground and opened the bag after opening that the first thing I found was my dad's leather jacket it was a bit worn out but I remembered him wearing that then I saw the picture of us it was me and my dad and he was holding me up and I started crying first hugged me till I stopped crying then said that's your dad right I nodded the he said now I know why you are so pretty and handsome. I nodded and said yes my dad was the most handsome man I knew. Now don't cry khao you know he will feel pain seeing you cry then he hugged me to which I hugged him back.
At that moment I knew even though I met first only a few months ago he is the one for me and will be only one who could do this for me, I don't think so alone I could have the courage to do this so my destiny gave first to me.

So First Kanaphan Puitrakul, I love you.