I thought what I caught was lightning in a bottle; I found out I was wrong when it finally shattered.
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Letters Unsent Series #2
Date Started: April 28, 2024
Date Completed: April 29, 2024
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July 30, 20XX
Hi Reed,
You have been so busy with work that we rarely see each other. We both had unpleasant encounters in our worlds, and I can't wait to meet with you to share some of mine with you because I need to get them off my chest. You know the logical words to say. You know what is right and how to keep me on the ground.
You welcomed me with a creased forehead. The weight of the day is evident on slumped shoulders and somewhat heavy breathing. It felt like I wasn't welcome in your apartment when you slammed the door closed. Somehow, I regretted dropping by, and it felt like I was disturbing you from the more important things you should be doing.
You assured me I was not a bother when I asked you if this was the right time to visit, but you rubbed what you needed to accomplish into my face. You need to finish a report you need to send to your client. You need to interpret the data from another side job you took because you needed the money. I just smiled and told you I would cook dinner and wait for you to finish everything. That seemed to lighten your mood somehow.
As we sat face to face at the table, you talked about how your client praised you for a job well done in the report you just finished. I asked you what it was about and listened to everything you said. I also asked questions when I didn't get what you said. You seemed a bit irritated at some of it, but who cares? You answered them anyway. You also shared with me that your other job moved the deadline. I pointed out that you could rest for the night because of it.
When it was my turn to bring my share to the table, you seemed uninterested. The plate looked more interesting to you in my point of view because your eyes were fixated on them. I still went on because I trusted that you would listen to me, but I was wrong. I was about to share what was happening at work when you stopped me and said that you did not care about me and my co-worker's business. That, for you, it was worthless. Unimportant. Not worthy of your time and attention.
You were the person I trusted the most. You were the person I looked forward to sharing the things that were important to me. I never knew that the things I value are nothing to you.
I should not bother myself with your response. You were just having a rough day, perhaps due to the stress caused by your workload. It's okay. I am okay with it. I will be fine and forget it, just like I always do because I love you and trust that you love me too.
