Three masked men

the sleepless morning.

That morning i was stuck in my own thoughts and fears, i couldnt comprehend anything of what happened i was just scared of the whole world i would jump whenever a car went by, or if someone walked by, i was just scared of the world. I then was looking around my room and saw my phone, i picked it up and saw that i had multiple texts from my friends Kayla, Angel, Mandy, and Yasenia. Skipping to Yasenia's i read "hey, sorry this might be really late at night, but i just wanted to say, i hope i didnt freak you out by kissing you last night. I just thought it was a good time to do it, it felt right, and ive always liked you, well, loved you, so i thought i would just do it and see. Text me or call when u can. thanks(: ~yasenia" A smile rose up from my mouth for the first time in a while. But then i remembered what had happened to me. I called her as fast as i could holding back tears. Thankfully she answered, as soon as i could think of asking to come over and stay for a while i said it and she said yes. I couldnt believe it, i told her i'd see her soon and gathered everything i thought id need and went there.

*Knock, Knock!* As i showed up at her door, i heard her running to the door and she opened it. I looked at her with tears in my eyes, and she looked at me with a sad look on her face, she told me i could come in and sit down. Putting my head down and walking it as soon as i sat down I broke down in tears. I couldnt stop crying, she held me and asked no questions. Her arms wrapped around me and she held me close as if a mother was holding her child during a horrid time. All i could do was sob, i couldnt talk at all, my mind was racing of the incident at home and when i was getting beat. It felt like it was never going to go away, everything felt numb, I felt lost in my own thoughts and that i was gonna get this shit every day of my life from now on. Shutting my eyes while her holding me i started to fall asleep, finally calming down breathing easier, her holding me close and kissing my head. I felt safe and secure, protected, and loved. I slowly drifted off to sleep in her arms on the couch for the first time all night.

"Riley, Riley, Riley!" As she was shaking me to wake me up. I woke up in a panic once again, I look around the room confused and scared as hell. I see her having her arms on my arms. I rest my head back down looking up at her and ask "yeah?" In a gentle voice. She looks dow at me and takes a deep breath, she asks shyly "what happened to you last night? I got up for a few minutes before i woke you up, because i had to clean up around the house and then i came back and realized you were bleeding in a certain area which is why i woke you up. But when you were sleeping you were dreaming and kept crying and screaming "No! No! Dont put it in, no, please dont!"I held you after you said that and then you calmed down." Blushing i look down in between my legs and see the blood bleeding through my shorts. I ask softly, "may i have something to put on  and then i will tell you?" She looks at me and nods yes she says "come with me I'll show you where i have them." At the bathroom she points to under the cabnets and says "they're under their, choose anyone you want hun" I blush and look at her in the eyes and say "thank you, so much" she smiles and i walk into the bathroom.

 After i came out of the bathroom i saw her cleaning the dishes in the kitchen, I didnt want to disrupt her so instead i sat on the couch. I started dozing off still tired from not sleeping all night. I listened to her bang the dishes as she put them into the drying wrack. My eyes shut and my mind was finally cleared and my body became relaxed, i fell fast to sleep in seconds.

30 minutes later she sat down next to me and woke me up by accident, i shot up scared and panting, scared. She looked at me startled and said "I'm sorry, i didnt mean to wake you." I looked around and looked at her i said "its ok" and laid my head on the side of the couch sitting up. Watching my every move she shifted her body towards mine and then began to ask "Can i know what happened now..?" She asked in a timid voice, i nodded my head yes, "When i got home last night i fell right to sleep like normal, around 2 in the morning i woke up to feeling someone rub my legs, i thought i was just dreaming and roled over to fall back to sleep. A few seconds later i felt it on my arms and opened my eyes, to wake up to a," I pause with tears building more and more in my eyes, "I woke up to a black man, with a mask on him. He was one of the guys from the beating, he threatened to kill me if i didnt let him, I felt so hopeless. When he was about to put it in, i-i-i," tears roling down my face nonstop and trun bright red from thinking about it, "I couldnt stop him, he didnt care and it felt like it tore me apart." Sobbing I fall into her arms crying. My body ached from the thoughts, i couldnt get it out of my mind, "it hurt me so much all i wanted to do was just die, i didnt want him to take it, i didnt want him at all", I thought to myself. I lifted my head and explained "he didnt even protect him or me, he did it and didnt care!" I cried harder, she was rocking me back and forth trying to calm me down. She rubbed my back and held me close to her body as i just cried. I prayed to god that she wouldnt tell a soul.