The Day We Met

Four: The Truth

 I am walking in the street and still figuring out about my feelings. As I walk down the street, my heart skipped when I spotted Theo across the way. Theo was laughing, his eyes sparkling with joy as he chatted animatedly with a girl. A pang of jealousy shot through me as I watched them, my stomach twisting with unease.

I froze in my tracks, my mind racing as I tried to process what I was seeing. Theo, the boy I had admired from afar , was there with someone else. I feel like the air had been knocked out of me, my chest tightening with a mixture of disappointment and sadness.

For a moment, I considered turning around and walking away, pretending I hadn't seen them. But something kept me rooted to the spot, unable to tear my eyes away from the scene unfolding before me.

For a moment, I stopped and said to myself that maybe she's just one of Theo's "girl". Every girl Theo have dated never lasts, because he never took them seriously. I walked towards them, and Theo didn't even notice me. As we drew closer, I could hear snippets of their conversation, the sound of Theo's laughter ringing in my ears like a melody I couldn't forget. I felt a lump form in my throat, my heart sinking with each passing second.

"Look at his face, full of smile" I said with my mind

"I wish I was her. So I can make him laugh, I can make him love me" the voice in my head almost brought me to tears.

Theo kissed the girl, and I saw them, my heart were torn apart into pieces. I turned away and left while tears were running through my face, I couldn't resist it, the pain I felt was like... a thousand of the sharpest swords were buried into my heart. I called Arthur while sobbing, I told him if I could come to his place.

(Phone rings)
"Arthur, can I come to your place?" I said, my voice is so unclear because of crying

"Are you okay? What happened?" Arthur replied

"Can I just come please" I answered, my voice cracked while begging Arthur

"Okay-- be careful okay"

I arrived at Arthur's house, we went to his bedroom and there we talked about what happened.

"I saw him, Arthur" I confessed, my voice barely above a whisper, as if speaking too loudly might shatter the fragile walls I had built around my heart.

Arthur's brow furrowed with concern as he leaned forward, his eyes full of compassion.

"Saw who, Oliver? What happened?" Arthur asked with confusion and yet concerned

I swallowed hard, the lump in my throat making it difficult to form coherent words.

"I saw (crying)... I saw Theo" I finally managed to choke out, the name heavy on my tongue like a bitter pill.

"With someone else." I added

"THEO! YOU MEAN THEO WEST?!" Arthur said

"DO YOU LIKE HIM?!"

A bitter laugh escaped through my lips, devoid of any humor.

"Like him?" I echoed, the word tasting sour on my tongue.

"Arthur, I think... I think I might have been fallen in love with him!." I added

The admission hung heavy in the air between us, the weight of my unspoken feelings finally laid bare for the world to see. Arthur's eyes widened in understanding, his heart breaking for his friend as he struggled to find the right words to offer me solace.

"Why didn't you tell me?" he said with a soft voice

"Because... (his voice fade) because I don't want you to think that I'm stupid, an idiot, to fell in love with a boy who is foolish and--"

"Ohh for god's sake Oliver, I'm your friend!  Your best friend. You know you can tell me everything. And I will be here with you. I will never judge you." Arthur said

(Arthur sighs)

"I know it hurts, Oliver," he said gently, his voice a soft murmur in the quiet of his room.

"But you're going to get through this. And I'll be here every step of the way."

I nodded, my gaze drifting to the window where raindrops streaked down the glass in a melancholy dance.

"Thanks, Arthur" I whispered, my voice filled with a quiet determination.

"I don't know what I'd do without you."

"And, I-I'm sorry for not telling you this. I'm just so afraid that I might lose you, and I'm afraid that if you will find out what I really am, I'm afraid that you'll avoid me." I said, with a  voice full of sadness

"Hey, don't apologize. This must have been really hard for you to say. And I'm here for you, no matter what." Arthur said with a smile on his face

My face breaks into a relieved smile, tears of gratitude shimmering in my eyes. With Arthur's unwavering support, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I know I can finally embrace my true identity.

Now, my only problem is my parents. I am so scared to tell them because I have a lot of thoughts on my mind, doubts. And I didn't want to add to my parents problem.