stolitz

chapter 6

(A/N: ✨✨✨ means time skip, ok? Ok ^^

Also, I guess I need to do tw's now soo,
Tw: eating disorder, slight PTSD, I think)

Stolas and Blitzø just lay there together on the hospital bed, cuddling up to each other, Blitzø nuzzled his head into the tuft of feathers (or hair... Fluff, maybe? I don't even know🥲) on the other man's chest. They didn't, couldn't, shouldn't let this moment end.
Just as Stolas was about to strike up a conversation with Blitzø about.... Things, he heard soft snoring coming from the imp, making him gently chuckle, and eventually drift off himself.

Blitzø's dream
The voices.... They were back.... Almost as if they had never left. Which they technically didn't. Every day, Blitzø could just about hear them, ringing around, pulling him like a puppet on strings.

Blitzø's brain's depictions of the people saying these things in his head were stalking him in a seemingly endless labyrinth. They followed Blitzø around the maze as he was running around, trying to find the voices, maybe finally being able to shut them up. But, as it went every night, he could not find them.

Why do I bother....

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Blitzø woke up to Stolas gently shaking him awake.
"Blitzy darling, I love you, but please, get your phone to shut the fuck up~" he said as he gestured to his alarm that had been going off for ten minutes.
"Oh, shit, I forgot... Oh I also forgot, it's my birthday today." This was the first time Stolas saw a genuine excitement and sparkle in his eyes. It was slight, but it was a start.
"Mhmh" he giggled softly. "I'll be sure to call! I would visit if I could, but I can't, for obvious reasons~"
"Haha, ok, noted."
They looked lovingly at each other before Blitzø left through the window.
"I love you, Stols."
"Likewise darling~"
They both blushed as they realised what they had said, and just laughed it off.

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Blitzø burst through the office door (not the fucked up wall😭) trying to forget about the night before, for some focus. Upon walking in and seeing Loona at her desk, he remembered that he had forgotten to drop her a text about him not returning home.
"Shit, I'm sorry I wasn't there last night Loonie. I got.... Caught up with... Important things.... (HAZBIN HOTEL STANS, YOU KNOW😆)"
"Yeah, whatever, go fuck yourself Blitzo."
Blitzø just felt a million daggers drive into his chest. She knew how he felt about his old name, and why it was changed in the first place. He then he remembered what the MnM's had said to him the night before.
   
          They had said the same thing...

Blitzø tried to fool himself by saying that it was just an accident. But deep down he knew that her sentence was very much intentional.
"Well, okayyy then... MnM guess what! It's my~"
"No body gives a shit, Blitzø. You're a piece of shit!"
"Right... Yeah... Whatever."
Blitzø walked into his office to work on some paperwork. As much as he tried not to, tears eventually started to pour onto the said paperwork on the desk.

Blitzø then started to try and distract himself by scrolling through his phone on sinstagram, but it just made him cry harder. Seeing all the people that used to be in his life, doing so much better without him. Verosica, fizz. It hurt.... A lot...
Then the voices, they decided to make themselves heard again.
"You see, Blitzo? You only fuck life's up! You see how much better they are without you? You were holding them back!"
"Yeah, it's inevitable for you and your little bird boy toy, Stolas!"
"What does he see in you, honestly!"

"Fuck off... I know your right, but still..."

Blitzø then began to wonder where his life had gone wrong. Instead of enjoying his birthday with his daughter and his friends, he was sat in his office, crying until there was no more iced coffee to cry (because of course it's iced coffee, not water🙃).

He walked over, grabbed his van keys, and jumped out of the window. He wanted to leave early, but could not handle the humiliation of walking out the door, saying goodbye, and none of them caring. He couldn't deal with that right now.

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He arrived home, slamming the door so hard the hinges almost fell off the wall. Before crying himself to sleep again on the couch, he paced over to the fridge, pulled out a box of cupcakes from it, and lit the candles on top of them. Until, of course, his head voices had to go ahead and ruin it.
"Don't burn the wicks, burn yourself, stupid shit!"
And of course Blitzø had to oblige. He was a puppet on their strings at this point. That episode didn't last though, because the candles were rapidly melting, and he didn't really want to eat wax. He then started to cry as he shakily sung himself happy birthday....

                                Alone...
After he blew out the candles and ate a cupcake, it was about seven, and Stolas facetimed him.
"Blitzy! How are...~" Stolas stopped mid sentence, and his face immediately went from lit, to very dark and concerned.
"Blitzø, are you ok? You look like shit -no offence-. What have you eaten today, why are you so pale? Have you been crying?!?"
"Yeah, Stols, I'm uh, I'm fine. I've just had a cupcake, so..."
"THAT'S ALL!?! Blitzø, it's seven o'clock at night, do you normally eat like this?!"
"Uhmmmm" Blitzø's unresponsiveness was an immediate giveaway of the answer for Stolas.
"RIGHT! They are about to let me out, ok? I'll be there as soon as I can, and when I eventually arrive, you are going to explain what is going on and why!'

Blitzø just sat there and began to cry. But this time, not because he was sad. They were tears of joy.
 
Finally he was important to someone.

              Finally someone cared...

                            Finally....

                    Blitzø was loved

                  *End of chapter 6*

A/N: HOLY SHIT, 1057 WORDS! But in all seriousness guys, how in the Kentucky fried fuck do I have so many views😭?
And especially this many views with no comments. Like, srsly, idk what you want to see from me if you don't tell me! I'm taking requests ^^