𝙼𝚢 𝙻𝚒𝚏𝚎

Monday, 30th of March 2024

Part idk: I hate this. I hate the dsmp fandom but I love it at the same time, seeing all the people quitting and telling that Dream or whatever cc is a terrible person just hurts me (except when it's about punz or wilbur), and on the other hand, I'm still not quitting because of the few fans still active, and just because at the end of the day, I find myself watching their content, relating the music I listen to to the lore of the rp characters, drawing them (cc!s and c!s) ect. I hate this, they're everywhere in my life, I'm stuck into this fandom, but the worst is this app. Wattpad is killing me, and as I said earlier, people quitting made me very upset, so reading discontinued fanfics and comments wrote by people two years ago, that today quit makes me breakdown almost every time.

Apart from wattpad, I just wanna clarify that I'm upset at the fanbase, and not at the ccs. Yes, Dream is a bit self centered and I personally dont even think that, and even, that's all that's wrong with him. His fanbase is the problem. I can't really say anything too bad about it because I'm a dream fan as well, but I find it so annoying that the dsmp's reputation got destroyed over an obsessed, toxic and small part of his fanbase. What I just said mainly applies to Dream, but it can apply on George, Sapnap and any other cc.

I'm taking a break from this dumb ass app, I'll check my notification but I won't be reading anything for a while.

Please help me, anyone, I'm lowkey depressed because of this fandom, I love it so much but I hate it as well, I'm literally in tears while writing this, so please help.