Frida | ✕

what about lisa

" what about
lisa?"

when frida asked benni
three weeks later
about
lisa

benni answered that

and she was sure that she has
all of the reasons in the
world to be
scared and
worry

because what about lisa means

the colour red is seared in
his mind as her favourite

the jazz was once the song they
danced to at the city hall
on christmas night

the purpura is her form of
freckles smeared all over
her arms and
back and
neck
where his lips once
touched

haltern was their town
they sung a song down the road
when he picked her up
from cologne

2008 was the year they first met
they were both teenagers
with chubby cheeks and
messily cut hairs

the italian restaurant downtown
was their spot that
witnesses more than one
important event of
benni
and lisa's life

2015 was supposed to
be the year where they got married
in haltern with just their
families

the hospital was their second home
latex gloves kiss her skin more
than he did
the needles buried inside her
arms
her wrist
even her legs
she was scarred
but he would never let her go

but 2013 was the year she left him
because she was
afraid
and he was too
ready

the sleeveless köln uni
belonged to her
she found them sitting
in the bottom of the drawer
when she was clearing it out
for her stuffs

the chipped part of the
blue bowl is caused by
their first argument
where he stopped the
bowl she threw on the table
from falling off
the counter

so one night when she
watched him cooked
she took notes on
how graciously his
back muscles
moved
and on how not to
speak her name
anymore

"i've been thinking about lisa."

he dropped the knife

" what about lisa?"

for a second, frida was scared
she was having second doubt
she was doubting him

" can we forget about it?"

benedikt wasn't going to
let it go
" what about it frida? what's
bothering you about her?"

she turned around and
suddenly
she freaked out
" everything benni,
e v e r y t h i n g!"

and they stood there
holding breaths as
tonight marked their
first ever
argument