𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐒𝐤𝐢𝐞𝐬. (Tom & Bill Kaulitz X Y/N)

part 21

*time skip at least 2 weeks later*

I got out of the ward kind of early I felt better being there. After I got out Fernanda let me stay at her apartment for a while until I could get my own place.

I haven't seen Tom around anywhere which im glad about.. I wouldn't want him touching me anymore. That might change to be honest...

It was now later in the day and I was starting to feel exhausted. I felt as though if I went to sleep id wake up to being kidnapped by Tom.. again. So I couldn't help but stay awake. My eyes felt tired as if I had been up for weeks straight. The ward was fun, it was tiring but I pushed through. The ward felt different.. ever since daisy's incident.

I knocked myself out of my deep thoughts and got up heading straight to the kitchen. I haven't eaten in a while, the ward's food is nasty. I sigh as I was to the kitchen rubbing my tired eyes and opening the fridge. Just then I hear a strange noise.

"hello?" I hold the knife that was closest to me in anticipation ready to fight if needed. .. hell no.
I backed up deeper into the kitchen slowly, hitting my back against a cabinet. My mind rushed straight into more thoughts

could it be Tom? what if he hurts me?

"Tom if you're there all i ask is that you dont touch me or hurt me please." I nearly begged. He came out of the dark.

i sigh and put the knife down, i still kept it close.

"What do you possibly want tom?" I said angrily.

"y/n I want you. listen, " he paused walking closer pressing his body against mine. his tall figure, defined body.. god i cant resist.

"I find that hard to believe." I said in a bratty tone.
"You really like misbehaving huh?" he whispered against my neck. i gulp in fear and nod "yes, in fact I do." i whispered back. "i find it entertaining to make you mad." i said boldly. God y/n whats gotten into you? i asked myself.

he grabs my wrist "we have to talk." he said almost dragging me to my room locking the door behind us.

"y/n i am sorry, i really am i dont know what got into me that night in the car I just needed you. I should've known how you were feeling instead of doing what i wanted.." he paused "although i usually do whatever I want.. anyways. im sorry y/n please forgive me. im trying to be better for you." He looked straight into my eyes not breaking eye contact. I couldnt help but stare rught into those warm honey brown eyes. I shook out of it "okay." was all i said. He smiled softly before hugging me around my neck.

All I could think about was if I really wanted to trust him again. Even after all he's done to me I can't seem to push him away. It's almost as though he has me in some type of brainwash. I can't let go of him. I feel like i need him to feel safe. If I dont have him around to beat whoever even looks at me for a second, i dont feel right. Tom was my protecter, but my enemy at the same time.

"Tom" I said quietly. "yes hun?" he said letting me go but holding my hands. "I love you" I said making eye contact once again. The chokehold he has on me is insane. he paused and looked at me "I love you, y/n." He responded.

Just as I was about to go in for a kiss he took a pocket knife and dragged it on my arm. i gasped and hissed at the stinging sensation. Just as I was believing him and when things were getting good. He ruined it. "TOM WHAT THE FUCK?" I yelled.

"Never run away from me again.. got that?" He whispered smirking and walking back into the shadows. i hold my arm searching around for something to wrap around it as blood dripped. That fucking asshole. I screamed and kicked the nearest item on my floor. "Fuck." I raged spilling water from the bucket i kicked. I had it there due to a leak in my fucking roof. "Life just cant get better can it." I whispered to myself.

I just want Tom to change. I want to have something with my enemy. It sounds crazy but im crazy for him so it's okay. I feel dumb for falling in love with someone who hurts me more than anything.

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it was now even later in the night.. like early morning. I still couldn't sleep thinking about the past few hours. I check my phone and notice a text from Tom.

Tom.

Tom.- Hey Doll.

me- hi? what do u want.

Tom.- Call me.

me- okay whatever.

So i called him.

"Hey." I said dryly.
"hey doll. I was thinking I could take you somewhere special tomorrow, you know to make up for tonight." He said i could feel his smirk from the other side of the phone.

"pft. you think I want to trust you with that after all you did?" I scoffed

"Darling sont make this any harder than it needs to be. trust me. Go to sleep, get rest and be ready by 10am tomorrow." He hung up before I got a chance to speak.

If i dont go he will show up probably with a gun for all I know. So I have no choice but to go.

I didn't know the occasion yet but I decided to get some sleep anyway. Ever since I met Tom I would always have this feeling that he's in my room while i sleep. Whatever, im just paranoid.

Or am I?

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A/n: Heyyy sorry for the cliff hanger lol and sorry if this was boring just a random thought. It's prob most likeley gonna get spicey soon. lmk if you have any ideas and feedback! love youu🤗