Taking It Back

Chapter Two

Once I was in the office I had to wait for over 15 minutes for the Principal to call me in. This pissed me off even more than I was now. Silas's words kept repeating in my head "To think I actually liked you" How long had he liked me? Had it even of been noticeable? Would he of attempted to date me? No. This can't be on my mind. I had to keep my priorities straight.

"Sit down Miss Smith," Mr.Garanding said, then after a slight pause he sighed and started again "Miss Smith. Do you know why you are here right now?" I nodded "Then tell me Miss Smith. Why is it that you are here, right now?" 

God, I hate when he (or anybody) calls me Miss Smith. It annoys the hell out of me, and makes me feel old. "I called a girl a lesbian." Saying straight up, and acting like I didn't care.

"Now Miss Smith, why did you call this girl a Lesbian? What is this girls name too Miss Smith?" Now that is just getting annoying.

Oh that's an easy one. "Elizabeth Henning’s She goes by Dawn too. And why you ask? Well, let’s see… Oh right! We were sitting in English, and she pulled out a pen and paper and wrote Elizabeth Smith on it with hearts." I snapped back, it was the truth.

He processed this for a quick second "Now Miss Smith. Do you ever think she could've been writing about another Smith? Or how about your brother Kyle?” Shit I forgot about Kyle. Yeah he has good looks and he was popular as well, but he graduated two years ago. So that wouldn’t even be the case.

"Mr.Garanding I can assure you it was not about my brother Kyle. He had graduated two years ago and he had never talked to her. She didn't even know him. Even if it was about him, why didn't she just write Mr. and Mrs. Kyle Smith? Or Mrs. Kyle Smith? He is also engaged with Dominique Right. I don't think it'd be about him." I replied with a hash tone. He and Dom met at his college in Birmingham the second week of school because of knocking into each other in the hallway. They were adorable, it was love at first sight.

His face went blank too, and mouth open with his jaw locked. He couldn't believe I had just said that. Me, Caroline Smith. The nicest girl in town, with a brother that went on from this very high school to become a famous hockey player, the girl that had always helped out when needed, the girl with perfect attendance and amazing grades. But it was. It did just happen.

"I'm done with this Miss Smith. You are to get a two day suspension out of school. You’re due back on Tuesday of next week with all your work completely done and handed in. Your mother will get a call right away," He said while writing down my suspension slip "You are to finish the day, get your work for the next two school days, and have your mother sign this. I am very disappointed in you Miss Smith. That kind of behavior is not accepted in my school." Then I grabbed my bags and the slip and he escorted me back to my classroom. 

We walked in silence through the hallway, people were staring. Once we got back to my English class the principal said something to Mr. Caroll I sat down in my seat like normal, but right when I sat down April, Amber, and Bethany came over and sat right next to me. I looked over at Dawn across the room, she had been called over by Mr.Garanding her face was all red and puffy from when she had been crying she nodded a few times to him then said something to Mr.Caroll and left the room with Mr.Garanding.

Mr.Caroll didn't teach for the rest of the period he just sat in his chair eyeing me carefully. It was then after he said to the class that we can talk quietly that I realized Amber was talking to me "…So anyways it was so funny, people kept laughing and Mr.Caroll kept trying to calm her and shut the class up by yelling but it didn't work so he just gave up. My god you would've loved it!" 

"Wait what? Were you talking to me?" I asked.

She looked at April and Bethany and they all three giggled then she talked "Duh I was talking to you! Hahaha, jeeze Caroline you are so funny!" I was so confused. 

"We so have to hangout this weekend at the mall!" April squealed as she squeezed my arm lightly. They had never talked to me, Dawn and her crew. Unless it was to get something out of me. It was quite aggravating. This day needs to just be done and over with.

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I was walking to my car after school when Silas ran up behind me, grabbing my arm and stopping me dead in me tracks. "What the hell? I have to get home Silas."

He gave me a rude look and snapped "No shit Caroline. I can't believe I didn't figure that one out myself," His harsh words got to me, he never talked like this to any one, at all he was so loved. I liked him so much and now he's not caring at all about my feelings, I could feel myself tearing up. His face expression changed into something more caring "Look I'm sorry, I really am. But when you said that to Dawn it pissed me off. Why does being a lesbian seem so bad? I mean honestly, what would you do if your brother was gay or something? Would you call him gay and make everyone turn on him?“ His facial expression changed back into a serious one, “Probably not. Y’know Brad even broke up with Dawn because he believed she was just using him as a cover up." 

I don't care for gay, straight, or bisexuality. My uncle was gay and happily married, I supported it fully, but when it came to me? Hell no. So all I said was "Silas. I support it, but that crossed the line. Yeah I shouldn't have said it, but I'm not sorry for it either." I said truthfully and genuinely looking him in the eyes, his expression changed again into something that I couldn't make out. 

"Caroline. I like you so much, but once you said that I didn't even want to know you anymore." He said it; words fast, not caring at all, so I broke. I couldn't control myself any longer around him. I broke out crying, weak, right in front of him too. "What? What did I do?" He honestly had no clue. Did he?

"If only you would have noticed, only once. I basically threw myself at you for the past 6 years Silas! Every time I went out with a boy, it was the same, you always were the one I thought about, and your face would be the one I see, not the guy I was dating. It hurt to see you date all those girls because I had wanted to be that girl. Yours. But then I had stopped trying. You never got the hint; did I ever get over you? Oh hell no. I still want to be yours, but that doesn't mean you feel the same. I'm sorry Silas." I backed up and tried to stop the tears.

His face was blank and I was still crying. I couldn’t take much more of the painful silence so I broke it and went straight to my car and left. Not giving him enough time to talk. I could hear him yelling my name, trying to get me to come back, but I didn't listen.