DELUSIONS Rockstar Jus x Brii2Raww

5.

6:30

I layed in bed wit my knee bandaged up. I mean I could still walk I just chose not too. The beach was mad fun tho.

The hoes was outside shaking ASSS.

I was lowkey tipsy, that henny was strong. Ionk how Jus straight. We going home tmr night and we was post to do hella shi but I'm here by myself.

The cut on my knee all stitched up and bandaged. Ionk I just kept thinking bout Jus, and how helped me.

I was brown a weirdo but I couldn't stop thinking abt how he helped me. Ionk it's just sum bout him sum different.

The whole crew went out, they was finna stay but I convinced them to go.
The hardest one to convince was Jus, he was determined to stay no matter what. But the crew helped me get him out.

Not that I wanted him to leave.

He was sum different, like he brought out my feminine side. The side that wanted to be little spoon or wanting to be held or paying for me.

Idk.

12:00

I took myself to bed I was tired and needed rest, when I woke up I grabbed my phone and started scrolling through insta. I came across gang story.

They had went to a strip club and in almost all of they stories Jus was wit a new girl.

Getting twerked on, making out.

Getting head.

Ts hurt I mean it's only been a day, and I'm already attached Ik it's dumb and Ik it's weird but it hurt.

I sat there rewatching the stories, he was literally getting head in the strip club.

It hurt so bad. He kissed me the same way he was kissing them hoes. He tilted his head back the same way he did for me when I gave him head.

Jus had been my homie since forever. I should've known catching feelings wasn't gonna get me nowhere.

He a player.

I sat there feeling like shit. I had a lump in my throat tears in my eyes I couldn't take it.

3:45

Gang had came back from the club 2 hours ago. I knew cus they all came in and checked up on me before going back to they rooms.

But Jus wasn't here and I knew why, I knew where he probably was and that didn't make the feeling of betrayal.

I decided to go back to sleep and not stress out over him, but I knew I definitely was stressed.

8:00

I woke up to a loud bang, I turned around to see Jus. I knew I was happy to see him but that didn't change how I felt.

Betrayed.

"Good morning ma, my bad about not coming back I wa-"

"You was wit da bitch from the strip club wasn't u." I gave him an empty stare. I wanted him to really know how I felt.

"Why do dat matter to you.?" He looked me up and down like he was tryna say sum.

"NIGGA OF COURSE IT MATTERS TO ME!!" I raised my voice and sat up on the bed.

"Yo chill all dat, it's none of your concern what I'm doing. I'm single." Those words hurt.

"Single?" I sat there hurt and confused. I mean I knew we wasn't dating but at least had sum going on that would lead to us dating.

"Yes nigga I'm single and you is too." He said it so nonchalantly like he didn't care.

He flopped down on the bed, pulled his phone out and started scrolling through instagram.

Like was I the dumb one here.? Was I the one taking everything wrong? But....

Idk. I sat there so hurt, I couldn't take it any more and decided to go shower.

Because of my knee I couldn't put in in water. I stood in the shower wit one leg out trying my best not to get my knee wet.

I was struggling when I felt hands wrap tight around my waist. I knew who it was and his hand around me felt so nice.

But I couldn't let him win. I pried his hands off me. " leave Jus." I said in a stern voice.

"No ma, you need me Ik you do." He then began trying to wash me and shi.

NGL I did let him do that but when we got out I walked away and began ignoring him.

"Ma, look Ik you mad and Ik I fucked up but the way you was all up on dem girls at the beach made me think that's what you wanted." He looked at me wit true sass but I didn't care.

" NIGGA WHAT?!! Dem hoes was on me first of all and I never said that's what I wanted and u didn't even bother asking me yo ass just had to go fuck a bitch." I was pissed Ik he wasn't tryna blame ts on me HN!!

"No, ma Ik it all my fault but I just wanted you to understand my perspective." He continued.

"Yk I can't do dis rn I just want space pls." I said.

"Ok ma."