Blooming red | s.jy

21. Denial?

Aera's pov

Flashback from 5 hours ago

"Hey rose......" he slightly smiles at me.

I cant think of anything , how the hell is he here?

Was he here all along?

Then why didnt he show up then?

Why after 3 years?

After so long?

How am i gon-

"Are you......alright?" He asks with his face etched with concern. That face whenever i used to get hurt , but that expression now hurts me , it tears me into pieces. He left me when i needed him the most.

How am I supposed to be alright?

Tears well up in my eyes again , my shoulders shaking from the impact as i try my best to hold myself from shedding tears.

His eyes widen and he moves towards me grabbing my shoulders. "Why? What happened? Why are you shaking like that? Are you h-"

"Dont touch me!"

I push away his arms and take a step backwards, i can see sadness and hurt in those eyes but no , not this time. I wont fall for it again.

"Why are you here all of a sudden sim jake" i glare at him with hot tears brimming in my eyes. "Aera i-"

"Why the f*** did you come back after all these years when i was finally healing , taking a step forward!" I yell at him this time. He stands there still , just blankly staring at me. "I dont even know where were you these 3 f***ing long years and now you suddenly show up , saving me from yeonjun and a crazy mob and suddenly act like you CARE for me?!"

I point at myself with my finger and he just looks at me with his hollow gaze , the remorse evident. "Just what exactly were you thinking jaeyun? That , you will come back and save me and be the hero ,making me feel proud of you so that i would forgive you?" My eyebrows arch when he lowers his head .

"This isn't a child's play jake and..... just look at yourself" this time i take a step forward towards him. "What have you become?" My eyes roam around the big pockets, with 2 guns , knifes and something that looks like a smoke bomb I suppose.

"Do you have any idea how much you made me suffer , how much you made me miss your presence?" Another step towards him. "You left me when i begged you to stay , you pitied me jake , the feeling i hated the most you did it , you broke the rules"

Another step , but he doesnt budge from his place " because of you , your mother suffered, because of your lie's your friends suffered , because of you my only hope shattered"

Another step and now im standing a few inches away from him. I grab him by his collar forcing him to look at me. He finally looks into my eyes . Those eyes that i loved the most are the ones that watched me beg and suffer yet just pitied me.