Onyx Eyes (Levi x Readers)

Fragility

It starts as it ends like this every time.

I hold you while you and sob into my chest, inconsolable, until you become limp and quiet. It frightens me every time you do this, because you feel more like a corpse than if you were just asleep. You look increasingly like one every day that passes now, just on the verge of mental collapse. I can see you caving, and it's too painful for me to watch, yet it's all I can do.

I've tried talking to you, I've tried to take you places and give you things: therapy, sweets, I even brought you a cat for your sake, even though it drives me fucking nuts. I have tried to make sure you're around your friends so they can keep you company when I couldn't, but you isolate yourself from them.

Please, don't do this to yourself anymore (Y/n), I don't want to see you fall apart, and I don't want to stop trying to make you happy. God damn it though, you make it so hard for me to keep going. I try to break the bleak look on your face with everything I've got, anything I can muster. When I do, it gives me hope that you're improving. It's too much hope all at once, for you take one step forward, and two steps backward.

I'm not going to drum on about life's difficulty, because no one wants to hear it. I just want you back so I can hold onto you for dear life, not in fear, but for my never-ending love for you. I won't tell you that I miss your beautiful smile, or your glowing eyes, or the pigment in your skin, because it doesn't matter what you look like to me anymore, I see you as you looked before anyways. I just miss you, your looks shouldn't matter, your smarts, your jokes, your heart, I need those things from you.

My heartstrings are loosening and snapping with how much you're worsening lately. I can't beg you enough to stop, to turn things around for the better. I'm still falling in the dark with you every step of the way, okay? You're not going to be alone, yet we're being torn apart because of this; it's not depression, it's something worse. A poison. A toxic, torturous poison that is killing us, but I still won't leave you for the life...and death of me.