𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐦 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐦𝐬 (𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐨𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐥𝐞)

❤️‍🩹𝟕.𝟓❤️‍🩹

[LOU'S POV]

I closed the door and watched as alastor left I felt as if my knees would collapse and the only thing in my mind right now is "why are you acting like a child" is repeating over and over again like if I where supposed to suffer, this was killing me those words I didn't ever want to hear it again but here I am crying because I heard it from someone I didn't want to hear it from.

I stand up and limply walked to my couch the lights where still on but why should I care anymore I felt like dying...I laid on my back and I stare at the ceiling my eyes blurred water trickled down the corner of my eye "I feel like shit right now.." i mumbled to myself managing to pull my arm up to cover my face.

After I think a few hours go by I hear the door open and bells jingle..if it where a robber what would they rob my flowers? I turn my head aside to see Charlie she was shocked she hadn't seen me like this since Lilith left me...Lilith why did you leave me? Was the thought that raced in my head.

Charlie runs to me and hugs me she was crying too if only I could lift my hand up to wipe her tears away I couldn't I was a shit husband and now I'm a shit father way to go..

"What's wrong papa?" Charlie whispered in my ear "nothing baby papa just needed to let go for minute.." I said with a smile and I manage to lift my hand and wipe her tears.

It's like my body wants to listen now I stood up carrying Charlie in my arms and I turn off the lights and I walk up the stairs to our room "papa why did you want to let go?" Charlie told me before we reached her room "Charlie everyone needs to let go once in a while you'll understand when you grow older.." I smiled and bopped her nose.

I opened the door and gently put Charlie down, I tucked her in and gave her a small gentle kiss on the forehead "good night my dear" i smiled and walked away to the door and closed it.

I don't know what it was but something wanted me to stay at her door for a while longer and now I know why because when I did I heard Charlie talk.

"Hey razzle and dazzle I know my papa is lying everyone lies but I just wanna know if my papa is fine but when I grow up I'll protect papa I'll make sure he's always happy!" I stayed there for a sec tears cloud my eyes my knees felt weak I held my chest and wobbled to my room.

I laid on my bed staring at the ceiling tears wet my bed and thoughts flood my mind "I'm so useless.." I mumbled i cover my face from the lights.

"Maybe I do act like a child..maybe alastor and Lilith are right.." I turn my head to look at the mirror and I see how horrible I look.

I felt as if someone was looking at me "even Charlie worry's for me.." I thought for a while then a wave of nausea hits me I couldn't hold it in and wobbled off the bed and limped to the bathroom.

I threw up and just looked at the vomit I sighed and gave up, I laid down on the cold bathroom tiles it felt so good and I felt so empty..

After a few minutes I close my eyes finally..the last thing I saw was a shadow frowning upon me..wow even the shadows think I'm useless..
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"I hate this feeling.."
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"I want it gone.."

[IN THE MORNING] (Lou's pov still)

I woke up on the bathroom floor with a headache I remember everything that happened yesterday and I'll try to forget that even happened like I always do..

But I need a break so I don't think I'll open the shop today. I stood up from the bathroom floor and look myself in the mirror I smiled towards myself.

I brush my teeth and splash my face with some cold water to wake my self up, I walk out of the bathroom and and walk to my room and I seen the clock..IT WAS 2 A CLOCK!?

I ran downstairs to look for Charlie and instead I found a note on the table saying "hey papa I know your still sleeping and I'll be eating breakfast at vaggies house" with smiley faces everywhere on the paper I read the note and smiled.

I sighed and made my self some coffee to start the day I sat at the kitchen thinking how I'll start my break day. I had some ideas of making ducks to sell them with flowers that would be a great idea to make more people come cause who doesn't like a cute duck..I stopped my thinking the I said "I'm thinking about work.." I stood up and dropped my mug in the sink I go back to my room to change into some new clothes.

I head downstairs and I made a paper saying 'gone for the day' and I taped it to the door and left.

HELLO MY DEAR READERS I AM BACKK!!
sorry I wasn't writing I was getting busy and almost forgot about this book and every time I did write it would delete so I kept losing motivation BUT IM BACK NOW AND ILL TRY TO KEEP POSTING