Saudade Hearts (Complete)

SPECIAL CHAPTER

Darcia.

I am okay now.

After years of studying in college, I am now a registered nurse. I continued my career in the U.S., and I've been busy with my career life. I love my job and the people I help with it.

I've been very happy during my two years of living here. My loved ones are in the Philippines, but I also want to experience living alone and being independent. Kinakaya naman, dahil kailangan.

My morning and afternoon shift is finished, it's already night, and I'm crossing the street towards a pedestrian shed where I can wait for a cab.

As I carefully observe my surroundings, I couldn't help but look at the man across the road. He looks very familiar, kilala ko siya, nagtama naman ang mga mata namin.

He smiled at me, and I felt frozen in place while he crossed towards my direction.

It was my husband, Pilot Joaquin Llezwedo. I snapped out of my dazed state when he hugged me tightly.

He's real. I was very afraid with the dream I had earlier when I fell asleep during my shift. He died in my sleep, and I was so terrified when I woke up, I'm afraid of losing him. I love him so much and I can't afford to lose him. I hugged him so tightly, as if there's no tomorrow. It was just a bad dream; I hope nothing bad happens to him.

"Why do you look scared my Darcia? Are you okay?" he asked, looking directly into my gentle and teary eyes.

"I just missed you. Akala ko may flight ka ngayon. Mabuti naman at napadaan ka muna dito." He smiled and kissed my forehead.

"I miss you so much. The flight was cancelled. And it's great 'cause I'll have a very long night with you." he glared at me and gently purse his lips to mine. I felt consoled of his reassuring and gentle lips.

We're already married, and sometimes I'm still surprised that I'm married to this man. Who wouldn't thought I'd marry him? My best friend, my boyfriend, and now he's my husband.

Every time we're afraid to take a risk in 'love,' we also lose a chance to achieve it. We don't know if we're dreaming or if what's happening in our lives is real. Maybe we're living in the future or maybe we're stuck in the past. We might also be living on another universe or maybe we're not. The feeling of Saudade is the scariest thing my heart could never afford to feel. I don't want regrets, I don't want to feel that. In every opportunity, we need to choose, take a chance or not, with or without a chance. Everything has a 0.001% of chances, no matter how small, as long as you want it, you'll surely win over it.

Author's Note:

You've made it this far, thank you for being here. Lovelotsss<3333